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I recently experienced this once again. Though some forewords. Yes also men dislike me but I don't really care about that. When attractive women dislike me this is something different for me. This post should not be misogynistic. Many traits I describe here also count for men. Though as I said I care less about their opinion. In general it is easier for me to have a friendship with a man. So no feelings can develop for each other if both are attracted to the other sex/gender.
In addition to that: due to my mental health problems I might interpret too much into facial expressions or I might can't evaluate the situation for what it is.
I think beautiful women are really annoyed because too many men approach them (solely due to her outer appearance). Very often when I approach beautiful women they reject me in a clear way (right from the beginning). I am not sure how they "smell" I am interested in them. Maybe you can see when you look at me that I am a desperate loner who is really insecure. I think this is really one of the biggest reasons. I think many women can assess the intentions of men like me pretty well. I hope this is not misogynistic. I just think some women are really used to men like me (especially in my age) and they are bored by them.
I have learned some things. If a woman gives you such a clear signal I try not to be intrusive. Though my best friend who was really desperate to find love found a woman. She did not want to give him hope at first but now they have a longterm relationship. I think my brain gets grilled by such mind games. This is why I just surrounder from the start. I had psychosis and these mind games just fuck me up. Some women were interested in me but damn these mind games: don't show too much interest etc. etc. it makes me go crazy. But maybe this is another topic rather related to my illness.
When I still showed interest in women who gave me negative signals I was humiliated. Maybe I am too sensitive towards humiliation. I said some cringeworthy stuff to these beautiful women which was pretty stupid - The rejection hurt due to that so much more. The lesson I have learned. I don't want to be humiliated anymore. It is not worth it. When a woman gives me negative signals I stop approaching them.
I think one reason why many women dislike me is when you look at me and observe my behavior everyone considers me as a careerist (striver). Many women dislike such men at least this is my experience. They don't know anything about me. About my traumata concerning studying/working. I don't say women are exceptional superficial. I think they are just as bad as men. There is no real difference between them.
A week ago I asked a woman a question about college stuff, kind of approached her. And her gaze was full of disdain. Lol. I don't think it is paranoid. Later I asked another woman a question and she was very friendly to me. Damn her face seemed very unpleasant (of the other one). We know each other a little bit but did not have a real conversation yet. She seemed interesting to me but now I keep distant. I don't look this bad. My outer appearance might even be slightly over average or at least average. It reminded me when another woman looked at me with extreme disdain. In my language there is a saying if a gaze could kill you you now would be dead. This counted for that woman.
Maybe this is too negative about political correctness and just shows my ignorance. I was on the way to colllege some years ago. Near to the college there was my therapist. I thought 24/7 about suicide and how to do it. I could not think about anything else and I did not do well mentally. There was a pregnant woman who wanted to take a seat. I did not recognize that the seat where I sat was reserved for a person like that ( i had earphones on). There was this college girl who looked at me full of despise due to this situation. She looked like she would have loved to kill me in this situation. When I recognized the situation it was too late. Another person (the college woman) offered her her seat. This college-woman was extremely judgmental. I later almost apologized to her. But she still looked at me full of despise. I have the feeling this is kind of wrong political correctness. I just sat in this bus fully paranoid obsessed by killing myself and did not recognize my environment. Maybe I am the one to be blamed in this situation. But in such situations these college kids should be a little bit less judgemental. Maybe it is ironic and I am the one who is judgemental about her.
This was a little bit unrelated to the previous story. The gazes just resembeled each other a bit. I could have written about other failures when I approached other women. But damn this thread is already once again way too long. I just spared you some stories to cringe.
In addition to that: due to my mental health problems I might interpret too much into facial expressions or I might can't evaluate the situation for what it is.
I think beautiful women are really annoyed because too many men approach them (solely due to her outer appearance). Very often when I approach beautiful women they reject me in a clear way (right from the beginning). I am not sure how they "smell" I am interested in them. Maybe you can see when you look at me that I am a desperate loner who is really insecure. I think this is really one of the biggest reasons. I think many women can assess the intentions of men like me pretty well. I hope this is not misogynistic. I just think some women are really used to men like me (especially in my age) and they are bored by them.
I have learned some things. If a woman gives you such a clear signal I try not to be intrusive. Though my best friend who was really desperate to find love found a woman. She did not want to give him hope at first but now they have a longterm relationship. I think my brain gets grilled by such mind games. This is why I just surrounder from the start. I had psychosis and these mind games just fuck me up. Some women were interested in me but damn these mind games: don't show too much interest etc. etc. it makes me go crazy. But maybe this is another topic rather related to my illness.
When I still showed interest in women who gave me negative signals I was humiliated. Maybe I am too sensitive towards humiliation. I said some cringeworthy stuff to these beautiful women which was pretty stupid - The rejection hurt due to that so much more. The lesson I have learned. I don't want to be humiliated anymore. It is not worth it. When a woman gives me negative signals I stop approaching them.
I think one reason why many women dislike me is when you look at me and observe my behavior everyone considers me as a careerist (striver). Many women dislike such men at least this is my experience. They don't know anything about me. About my traumata concerning studying/working. I don't say women are exceptional superficial. I think they are just as bad as men. There is no real difference between them.
A week ago I asked a woman a question about college stuff, kind of approached her. And her gaze was full of disdain. Lol. I don't think it is paranoid. Later I asked another woman a question and she was very friendly to me. Damn her face seemed very unpleasant (of the other one). We know each other a little bit but did not have a real conversation yet. She seemed interesting to me but now I keep distant. I don't look this bad. My outer appearance might even be slightly over average or at least average. It reminded me when another woman looked at me with extreme disdain. In my language there is a saying if a gaze could kill you you now would be dead. This counted for that woman.
Maybe this is too negative about political correctness and just shows my ignorance. I was on the way to colllege some years ago. Near to the college there was my therapist. I thought 24/7 about suicide and how to do it. I could not think about anything else and I did not do well mentally. There was a pregnant woman who wanted to take a seat. I did not recognize that the seat where I sat was reserved for a person like that ( i had earphones on). There was this college girl who looked at me full of despise due to this situation. She looked like she would have loved to kill me in this situation. When I recognized the situation it was too late. Another person (the college woman) offered her her seat. This college-woman was extremely judgmental. I later almost apologized to her. But she still looked at me full of despise. I have the feeling this is kind of wrong political correctness. I just sat in this bus fully paranoid obsessed by killing myself and did not recognize my environment. Maybe I am the one to be blamed in this situation. But in such situations these college kids should be a little bit less judgemental. Maybe it is ironic and I am the one who is judgemental about her.
This was a little bit unrelated to the previous story. The gazes just resembeled each other a bit. I could have written about other failures when I approached other women. But damn this thread is already once again way too long. I just spared you some stories to cringe.
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