Some of us with mental illness should not naturally be alive

[SomewhatLoved]

It's known that there are genetic factors which influence mental state. People are not necessarily born depressed, anxious, with BPD, etc, but we know that people can be predisposed to these things and if multiple people are subject to the same circumstances, some will cope better than others. Some will come out fine and some will develop issues. I think after this compounding for a few generations now, that's why we've seen an increase in this shit ramping up from gen X to millenials to gen Z and now even gen A. My parents both suffered their own mental illnesses, and me and my sibling both now do as well. It was passed on to us - it's known that people with direct relatives with mental disorders are more likely to be mentally ill themselves.

I'm not advocating for "social darwinism" or any of that. Obviously that ideology is fucked up and bullshit, but what I do believe is that what more and more people are beginning to feel in the modern day is a result of the way humans have began to control nature and prevent natural selection from taking it's place. I fully believe that if I was subject to a natural, pre-civilization environment and had to survive on my own, I couldn't. I don't think I could cope with the physical, mental, and emotional stressors that would be present. I can barely even cope with my own life where I get food off of a shelf at the grocery store and go home to a warm bed each night heated by fossil fuels. I am dysfunctional. I could not fulfill my natural purpose as a human if I was tested to.

So, here we are. Existing when we should not. I think that's a big part of why a lot of us feel a lack of purpose. We're unable to do things we know we should, and that lack of ability leaves us filling unfulfilled and purposeless. My mom has been going through therapy for 10+ years now and she still deals with her mental state. Is she improved? Yes. Is she normal and well-functioning? In a lot of ways, no. This is not a "diss" to her - she's put in a lot of hard work and has come a long way. It's just moreso an observation that a lot of the time you can't really completely "shake" these types of things, even with over a decade of therapy.

It just makes me feel like what even is the reason in trying. Maybe my purpose in life was to not be successful and to die. I was, like we all are, an experiment of slight genetic difference. Only my differences turned out to be poor, while other's turned out to maybe be beneficial.

 

[Doll Steak]

Yeah, very harshly truthful, suicide is like natural selection taking place. it might be cynical or depressing to look at it like that but it really is probably true.

 

[enough of this]

That's certainly true in my case. Considering all the bizarre behaviors I've heaped onto people, never knowing any better, it's a wonder I haven't been knocked off yet.

 

[Vlad Tepes]

My parents are the 2 most mentally disturbed people I have ever known (and I'm including people I've met on the internet here). They are genetic and moral trash and should absolutely never have reproduced. The world should be thankful that I have no siblings and would be even better off had they never had any children, period.

 

[LostLily]

I go from being in denial that I'm mentally ill to thinking I have all the mental disorders. Honestly, my brain is too fucked up for me to exist.

 

[enough of this]

I go from being in denial that I'm mentally ill to thinking I have all the mental disorders. Honestly, my brain is too fucked up for me to exist.

 

[wham311]

Got my dad's disagreeableness and my mom's neuroticism and neither of their work ethic or morality.

What a fucking bum.