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st4r53t
Endlessly endeavor. This is finding infinity.
- Nov 26, 2023
- 39
i hate going outside.
there are a lot of people everywhere and I, through my social anxiety and very low self-esteem, get hit even harder.
i feel like everyone is staring at me, like i'm some kind of leper, different. this is not a delusion, it really happens.
i have no idea why. i don't dress extravagantly, i dress as plainly as i can. i don't wear makeup. and still i feel those eyes of theirs on me everywhere.
i'm sick of it, i get into some kind of panic and on top of that i often have a situation where older men accost me. and i'm paralyzed. how are such situations supposed to make me better at fighting my phobia?
it is all disgusting, I am afraid to go into a store and talk to the cashier.
so much I don't know how to deal with it, I am concerned about everything is what someone will say to me or how they will look at me.
it's tiring to deal with it all, i wish i could disappear
there are a lot of people everywhere and I, through my social anxiety and very low self-esteem, get hit even harder.
i feel like everyone is staring at me, like i'm some kind of leper, different. this is not a delusion, it really happens.
i have no idea why. i don't dress extravagantly, i dress as plainly as i can. i don't wear makeup. and still i feel those eyes of theirs on me everywhere.
i'm sick of it, i get into some kind of panic and on top of that i often have a situation where older men accost me. and i'm paralyzed. how are such situations supposed to make me better at fighting my phobia?
it is all disgusting, I am afraid to go into a store and talk to the cashier.
so much I don't know how to deal with it, I am concerned about everything is what someone will say to me or how they will look at me.
it's tiring to deal with it all, i wish i could disappear