Venting So unloved

[Proxycake]

Everything I do just makes everything worse . I am a very, very terrible person and I am very selfish. I glare at couples because they get to have what I can't. No one can love somebody like me; somebody lacking so much empathy, someone so greedy. I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life yearning for somebody that does not love me . And I never deserved it . I just wish I could die and make it go away I hate how this feels it's a big gaping hole in my heart that sits there all day every day and I'm losing my mind trying to get rid of it

Every time I try to stuff tissues in the wound they get expelled, covered in mucus and clotted blood, I will never have what I want … and I am afraid to sleep tonight because all I have are nightmares . All I want is to die and I need to make it work. I need to make it work in the next 3 days or im going to lose my mind im so scared and upset I don't even know what to do im going to be alone he isn't going to reach out no body loves me I only care about mgself im not gonna get anything no one is gonna reach out no one is gonna call they're just gonna watxh me suffer and laugj at me I get no text no call no love no notning please kill e me I hate living I hate it here I hate it kill me me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me no one sees me

No one sees me and if theh do then they see right through me and they don't care no one loves or cares about me no call no text no love no sympathy no empathy jjst pain and I am pathetic and selfish and bad and I need to die now now now now now now now now now

please
if god is real
can he kill me tonigj
Can it please jjst sfop hurting for ten fucmjng minutes I can't take it anymkre

 

[bipolar22]

Rough. I hear you. Im not a good person myself more like a hurricane. God obviously is some superstition from centuries ago. We need actions not prayers. Just saying. Well what to say. Rough positions to be in