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I’ll be watching...
- Aug 6, 2019
- 777
This is downright tragic. I know this is meaningless and trite but I'm sorry this had to happen to you and your family. Nobody including your children should blame you for wanting to avoid a long, drawn-out, torturous death via a disease from hell like ALS. I'm sure you're wise enough to pick the right time.
Impossible situations like this are a big part of why I'm a philosophical pessimist: very bad things happen to good people and the degree of pure nastiness that can be reached in life is almost limitless. Hell manifests on earth through hopeless situations like yours.
Perhaps it can be useful to keep in mind you're making the wisest decision under the circumstances and you'd be no good to your children as a vegetable. One you're gone you'll be forever free of pain and discomfort including the, very understandable, concerns you have right now.
Your husband and kids will manage. Do try to write as much as possible if you can to let them know you were thinking about them the whole time and how much you love them. Which is evident from your post, even to a total stranger.
Thank you for your kind words.