Discussion So much pain

[new life]

I am literally sat here crying cause i cant stand the pain of living. Having to wait till Augast till the campsites open is so painfull. I might try hanging or something in the meantime. I just cant let anybody find me otherwise i go back to hospital.

 

[Jean4]

I understand. Do you want to talk about what is causing the pain? We are good listeners.

 

[randomz]

I am literally sat here crying cause i cant stand the pain of living. Having to wait till Augast till the campsites open is so painfull. I might try hanging or something in the meantime. I just cant let anybody find me otherwise i go back to hospital.

The pain of living, I know what you mean....it's such a huge pain. Why don't you try something to distract yourself? How long has it been since you watched some dumb sitcom? How long has it been since you played some mindless videogame? These are some life painkillers, at least for me.... Maybe you should give them a try?

 

[new life]

@Jean4 this world is not for autistic people like me. It is just painfull having to live everyday, as i cant go through with my plan until august when the campsites open fir summer.

 

[Ghost2211]

I know how you feel. Waiting is really hard, and completely overwhelming some days. I'm in the same boat you're not alone <3

 

[new life]

@randomz it certainly is a huge pain. I have tried things to distract myself, watched tv, gone out for a walk but i just keep thinking about ctb. I just so certain i want to ctb just wish summer would hurry up and come, so i can finally excute my plan.

I know how you feel. Waiting is really hard, and completely overwhelming some days. I'm in the same boat you're not alone <3

Certainly is hard waiting, but inhave to keep it under wraps otherwise the mental health people put me back in hospital and get in the way of my plan again. How come your waiting.

 

[randomz]

@randomz it certainly is a huge pain. I have tried things to distract myself, watched tv, gone out for a walk but i just keep thinking about ctb. I just so certain i want to ctb just wish summer would hurry up and come, so i can finally excute my plan.

I hope you can take your mind off these thoughts at least for a while and enjoy the good stuff life has to offer (there is good stuff, we just don't see it sometimes) .

 

[new life]

Cant wait till summer and try to remain undercover till then. Finally i can then CO poisen myself in the tent at the campsite at my chosen location.

I hope you can take your mind off these thoughts at least for a while and enjoy the good stuff life has to offer (there is good stuff, we just don't see it sometimes) .

Maybe true to you but i dont see anything good in life thats why i have decided to ctb. I wish i could firget theese thoughts at least for a while but i cant as i so badly want to leave.

 

[Jessamine]

You could go to a campsite without B and B facilities if you feel that bad.

 

[new life]

You could go to a campsite without B and B facilities if you feel that bad.

Yes i could but I have chosen this campsite because of the wonderful scenery and wildlife around, and i would like to have that around whilst i die and be in peace.

 

[Jessamine]

Oh right.

 

[new life]

Oh right.

I planned it all very specifically which is what happens when you autistic.