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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I'm drinking some vodka while experiecing these everlasting flashbacks!!

So many memories I've shared with some amazing people and yet, here I am, all alone and lonely.


Does this happen to you too? I mean, is the past never coming back? It's heart-breaking!
 
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LeGuitarist

LeGuitarist

Eternally Lost
Mar 19, 2021
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Yes, the nostalgia can be pretty overwhelming. I mean, it's not like I've had the happiest childhood or anything, but anytime I think of when I was just a young and innocent child, I can't help but wish I could go back in time...
 
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NormaJeane

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Mar 24, 2021
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When I sleep I often use to dream about people from the past, former friends and former lovers. The dreams are a mixture about these people and fantasies. That were happier times and I wish I could travel to the past, to be there again.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
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what the fuckity fuck's going on?
maybe there's an astrologer out there who can tell us what we're having these flashbacks for..?
am reducing my ritual de la habitual (H) 'cos i'm done with people and going to the farm.
doing this invokes flashbacks, dreams, memories all with this tidal wave of emotion (which i obviously suppressed when i was using)
- so glad i'm not alone - going through some madness.

so thank you guys:
for your honesty
for your willingness
for your vunerability

i really felt like an exposed mess of nerves and panic: music is helping (withdrawal is even making my meditations dark and moody...)
a friend told me that memories are just chemical explosions (they uncurl like fern leaves apparently!) and because some of us are s chemically unbalanced (whatever the reason is immaterial) we go through this.
 
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Last chance

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Feb 6, 2021
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Memories are one of my main things driving me to CTB. I'm taunted by them all day and all night.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I look on some memories fondly, as even know I was probably still miserable back then, the past has been better at times than the way things are now. Therefore these events are glorified in my mind. However I wish there was an option to erase certain memories as my consciousness likes to torture me by bringing up past traumas.
It is weird though how I dream about past times that I rarely even think about when i'm awake. I will never understand what causes these strange dreams!
 
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