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niniwuuu

niniwuuu

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Jul 20, 2019
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Currently, I am five foot ten and weigh 185 pounds. It's a bit rainy here and cold. I started it 2 days ago. Now it's 3 days without water and the 2 days without any food. On the first day, I just had 4 mugs of coffee. That's it. Nothing except coffee. I drink a lot of coffee so I had it. No specific reason behind that. I didn't have any water or food. Just coffee.
day. I just kept going with the day. I listened to songs and was playing games. Nothing specific to do. I slept six hours during the day and stayed awake all night. I could strongly sense

Yesterday was the second day. I didn't have anything for the first time in life. No water. No food. I am not feeling anything. No discomfort. Occasional stomach aches. I can sense the smell of food from my room, which I usually don't feel. I didn't feel any thirst. I felt exhausted and my eyes became dry. I had sharp headaches for a few hours but I felt peaceful by night.

Today is the third day. I've been in the bed since morning. I avoided going to the kitchen so that I wouldn't be tempted. My folks are making all kinda tasty food that they wouldn't do often. I just feel like giving up but again, I just remember what their reaction would be if I fail my exams and that keeps me from eating. Feeling tensed and nervous. My eyes are itchy, as I am writing right now. I can feel that my skin is now so thin. It is so thin that I never knew my skin would look like this. Apart from that, I just stay in my room, watching videos and scrolling through Reddit. No discomfort felt. Can feel the churning effect in the stomach. Occasionally it stings a bit but it is bearable. I have headaches. Lots of it. I was awake at night. I slept 5 hours during the day. I am not feeling hungry but I am fantasizing about food. No thirst felt. But I feel like having some steak .
 
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The Sleep of reason produces monsters
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Well, you are brave to do something like this. I don't know if is morally correct advice you but.
Back then when i was starting a fasting schedule, i use chewing gum without sugar make me feel concentrated in not eat with something in my mouth.
 
niniwuuu

niniwuuu

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Jul 20, 2019
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Well, you are brave to do something like this. I don't know if is morally correct advice you but.
Back then when i was starting a fasting schedule, i use chewing gum without sugar make me feel concentrated in not eat with something in my mouth.
Thanks! I'll do that. My recent loss of appetite is helping me.haha
 
Nexuno

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Thanks for sharing. If you plan to update us day by day it would be useful to have some additional info, like age, pre existing medical conditions etc.

In any case best of luck, I really hope you can be free from suffering ASAP :hug:
 
Pookie

Pookie

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Oct 18, 2020
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Your parents aren't going to notice?
 
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Currently, I am five foot ten and weigh 185 pounds. It's a bit rainy here and cold. I started it 2 days ago. Now it's 3 days without water and the 2 days without any food. On the first day, I just had 4 mugs of coffee. That's it. Nothing except coffee. I drink a lot of coffee so I had it. No specific reason behind that. I didn't have any water or food. Just coffee.
day. I just kept going with the day. I listened to songs and was playing games. Nothing specific to do. I slept six hours during the day and stayed awake all night. I could strongly sense

Yesterday was the second day. I didn't have anything for the first time in life. No water. No food. I am not feeling anything. No discomfort. Occasional stomach aches. I can sense the smell of food from my room, which I usually don't feel. I didn't feel any thirst. I felt exhausted and my eyes became dry. I had sharp headaches for a few hours but I felt peaceful by night.

Today is the third day. I've been in the bed since morning. I avoided going to the kitchen so that I wouldn't be tempted. My folks are making all kinda tasty food that they wouldn't do often. I just feel like giving up but again, I just remember what their reaction would be if I fail my exams and that keeps me from eating. Feeling tensed and nervous. My eyes are itchy, as I am writing right now. I can feel that my skin is now so thin. It is so thin that I never knew my skin would look like this. Apart from that, I just stay in my room, watching videos and scrolling through Reddit. No discomfort felt. Can feel the churning effect in the stomach. Occasionally it stings a bit but it is bearable. I have headaches. Lots of it. I was awake at night. I slept 5 hours during the day. I am not feeling hungry but I am fantasizing about food. No thirst felt. But I feel like having some steak .

Good luck! I couldn't get past day 6.
It's gonna be tough of day 3 or 4 when acidosis hits you, but if you get past it it'll get better
 
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Oh my, what a terrible, long drawn out, way to go.
Can I ask how old you are OP, and your reason for choosing this method?
Surely your family members will notice that you aren't eating and drinking?
 
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niniwuuu

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Good luck! I couldn't get past day 6.
It's gonna be tough of day 3 or 4 when acidosis hits you, but if you get past it it'll get better
I am on day 5 today. And what do you mean by it gets better? Idk, do you mean like I have a better chance of catching the bus?
Oh my, what a terrible, long drawn out, way to go.
Can I ask how old you are OP, and your reason for choosing this method?
Surely your family members will notice that you aren't eating and drinking?
My family members know that I am not eating. I've said to them that I am having oatmeals regularly. But they don't seem to care about what I am doing. Literally, they don't care. And whats time specification you mean by long drawn? I read somewhere that the general norm in 10 days.
Thanks for sharing. If you plan to update us day by day it would be useful to have some additional info, like age, pre existing medical conditions etc.

In any case best of luck, I really hope you can be free from suffering ASAP :hug:
Thanks a lot. I will include the conditions you mentioned above. If its going to be useful for people, i am not going to deny it.
Currently, I am five foot ten and weigh 185 pounds. It's a bit rainy here and cold. I started it 2 days ago. Now it's 3 days without water and the 2 days without any food. On the first day, I just had 4 mugs of coffee. That's it. Nothing except coffee. I drink a lot of coffee so I had it. No specific reason behind that. I didn't have any water or food. Just coffee.
day. I just kept going with the day. I listened to songs and was playing games. Nothing specific to do. I slept six hours during the day and stayed awake all night. I could strongly sense

Yesterday was the second day. I didn't have anything for the first time in life. No water. No food. I am not feeling anything. No discomfort. Occasional stomach aches. I can sense the smell of food from my room, which I usually don't feel. I didn't feel any thirst. I felt exhausted and my eyes became dry. I had sharp headaches for a few hours but I felt peaceful by night.

Today is the third day. I've been in the bed since morning. I avoided going to the kitchen so that I wouldn't be tempted. My folks are making all kinda tasty food that they wouldn't do often. I just feel like giving up but again, I just remember what their reaction would be if I fail my exams and that keeps me from eating. Feeling tensed and nervous. My eyes are itchy, as I am writing right now. I can feel that my skin is now so thin. It is so thin that I never knew my skin would look like this. Apart from that, I just stay in my room, watching videos and scrolling through Reddit. No discomfort felt. Can feel the churning effect in the stomach. Occasionally it stings a bit but it is bearable. I have headaches. Lots of it. I was awake at night. I slept 5 hours during the day. I am not feeling hungry but I am fantasizing about food. No thirst felt. But I feel like having some steak .
I am on day 5 now. Nothing serious. I can still take care of myself. I can walk around. I spend a major part of my day in bed. I am less interested in things than usual. My sleep schedule has changed a lot. By now, I am starting to hate food on one hand. On the other, I just want to have a lot of juices and fruits. I never like fruits but now I feel like having them. My mouth is dry and slimy. I've lost a significant amount of muscle and fat from the chest and abdomen. My hands are becoming thin. Sometimes I get dry eyes and dizziness is normal. I'm limiting my verbal conversations. And if you wonder, No I don't suffer from any physical issues! I am a perfectly healthy individual.No previous history of major illness. I am physically perfect,untouched by sickness.
 
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