So how many of you are gonna do it?

[inconsequential]

Eventually. I want to get the rest of the good days out of my body, first. They keep getting worse.

 

[pane]

Well J started diluting it just before he stopped selling but it was still enough for a peaceful death because he would sell it 25 grams a pop. But even still I'm pretty sure the volume is a lot less than that of liquid veterinarian nembutal.

Do you know of anyone else currently selling powdered Nembutal?

 

[mutagen5577]

I really want but i have no courage for it
how many of you already made the decision and actually will do it?

I have the means, and I most definitely will do it. I have no idea how I've lasted as long as I have. I've been suicidal for years, and it still hasn't happened yet because honestly I'm just scared.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Do you know of anyone else currently selling powdered Nembutal?

No I don't, but who knows a newer version of the PPH might have a source.

 

[Dracorex0]

I'm doing it ASAP but need someone else for my plan so ahh pls help me

 

[Kringle's Curse]

I won't live through the summer.

 

[wanttodie]

I will definitely CTB

 

[Ruffian]

How to do what? I got Medicaid through a hospital that I kept going to for emergency med refills. They did all the work. I just had to tell them it was ok to submit the application.
After a serious suicide attempt, my insurance won't cover an outpatient program! Not that I want to even go but wtf?

This is really troubling. After a serious hospital stay you would think they would want you to do some outpatient stuff. I have to look at Medicaid in my state because if I try to file for SSI I won't be working. Again, how to do that is another whole question.

 

[IMALB]

Oh dont even get me started on the VA I am a ARMY veteran honorably discharged for mental health. I am just not gonna open that can...

Yup - agree - that can is a big as the earth itself. So bad - so very bad.

 

[lululoo]

Yes. Maybe this month. September at the latest.
Unless someone cures my chronic illness and pain magically. Then I would stick around a little longer to see if the other aspects of my life improve, though I doubt they would.

 

[IMALB]

As far as the original question goes, I'm going to do it no doubt. Can't imagine living my life if I didn't.

 

[Lefty]

I've been having trouble with it. Though I do hope and plan to do it eventually.

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

Hopefully by the end of the summer.

 

[ExitTheDay]

There are just so many ways of failure and that's what I'm mostly afraid of

 

[hauntedmosaic]

I really want but i have no courage for it
how many of you already made the decision and actually will do it?

I don't have the motivation and drive to do it. It's just a thought for now. Almost like I'm stuck in limbo. Incredibly unhappy with my life but don't really have the drive to make things better or end it.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

I don't know man... I just don't know.

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

I'm doing it ASAP but need someone else for my plan so ahh pls help me

Your posts are way too desperate. They sound somewhere between legal entrapment and desperation. I havent seen any members that would advise CTB under any such circumstances. CTB is your decision and should be done by your hands under rational and logical deep thought. I pray you find peace or you stop soliciting as sooner or later you may cross the boundaries of a forum rule.

 

[Dracorex0]

Your posts are way too desperate. They sound somewhere between legal entrapment and desperation. I havent seen any members that would advise CTB under any such circumstances. CTB is your decision and should be done by your hands under rational and logical deep thought. I pray you find peace or you stop soliciting as sooner or later you may cross the boundaries of a forum rule.

ye ye ye, I'll keep my whining about it for the partners thread now

 

[intheend]

I have to ctb by the end of the next week. Can't be here any longer.

How are you gonna do it?
I hope this will be my last summer, or at least my last year.

 

[angie]

There are just so many ways of failure and that's what I'm mostly afraid of

I dont know if its best to use SN instead of N as SN seems to be more palatable to drink and lot less to drink .
N apparently tastes awfull and you need to drink 2bottles 200mls .
anyone have any info why one may be better to take than the other ???

 

[ExitTheDay]

I dont know if its best to use SN instead of N as SN seems to be more palatable to drink and lot less to drink .
N apparently tastes awfull and you need to drink 2bottles 200mls .
anyone have any info why one may be better to take than the other ???

When it comes to SN & N I have no idea what I'm talking about, but here's a link with some useful information

Which drug? - Lost All Hope

In the UK, data from the Office for National Statistics for 2001 (see England & Wales methods of suicide) showed that of the total 1,243 drug related suicides, 28.5% were due to paracetamol and its compounds, and 24.5% were by anti-depressants, making these the top two methods. In the US (see...

lostallhope.com

 

[Roger]

. . .I have no idea what I'm talking about . . .

Join the club.

 

[Rukia]

For me it's not lack of courage–I can go on autopilot and overcome SI easily. I can't get over the impact it'd have on people I'm close to or in contact with

For me it also a major factor...

It is hard to live but even harder to die...

For now I think I will have the courage to drink N...but I do not have it yet...so maybe if I will be in possesion my courage would fade away...especially since I am on antipsychotics...and there can be interaction between this drugs ...

It is so much easier doing it in Switzerland, everything is easier for rich people...They do not have to drink liquid for injecting animals as their best option...

 

[Superfluous]

I am. Thought I would be nervous about it seeing as it's only roughly a week away, but strangely still calm.

 

[Umi]

In my personal situation, I've really got no other better choice. I've just accepted it as something I gotta do. No matter how scared I am.

 

[mathieu]

Even though I lack courage, too, I think I am going to do it this month depending on when supplies arrive. Things have just become so intolerable and unacceptable and I get courage from that fact.

 

[bhav]

I need to do it, but its so hard, it gets frustrating because I want to be gone so far but the simple act takes so much from me, and I have so much fear.

 

[Halo13]

Yes - it is inevitable. Even without an incurable disease and chronic pain, I'd consider it inevitable.

 

[throwaway123]

I am going to do it. I just have to. It's not like I have a choice.

 

[been_there]

No problemo. Once the decisions made everything else becomes easier.