Discussion So how does your CTB* plan looks like?

[Odwin]

Do you guys have a plan?
I feel like I am gonna do it impulsive. One bad thing more and I just do it.

 

[Bamman]

I have my dream or ideal plan mapped out in my head. A nice view, amongst nature. A bottle of N (which I wish I had) and my favourite song or one appropriate for my ctb.

realistically though it's looking more and more like hanging but the si instinct in that is just so strong. That's the backup plan.

plans don't always work out though. :/

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

My plan: Put rope in backpack, go to tree, fuck around with partial until it works, die.

 

[hfdepression30]

In the evening. Lighting the charcoal either outside or in the conservatory with the door open. While I wait for them to start glowing and stop smoking, seal the windows with duct tape, putting a note on the door warning of CO and my suicide note on the side. When the coals are ready, moving them into a baking tray, bring them to my room, lock and seal the door with duct tape, then lay down on the bed and watch Netflix until I fall unconscious and then die in my sleep.
That's my planned suicide.

Impulsive would be partial hanging.

 

[hahabye]

My plan is to do it on a nice summer evening/night. Find a remote and peaceful spot in the nature, play some classical music and drink my N.

 

[WatermelonMel]

I got a ratchet strap (and a backup) on my shelf with medicine caps taped, ready to go to force my carotid arteries shut. I'm planning on doing it while laying down comfortably in my bed maybe with some music playing.

And btw it's CTB (Catch the bus)

 

[Odwin]

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And btw it's CTB (Catch the bus)

Ahh, made a typo :D. Well today we all Catch Bus The

 

[WornOutLife]

I'll probably do it impulsively because of my bipolar disorder.
I'll just get SN or N somehow and drink it one random day. Still, I'll organize my stuff and leave some notes behind beforehand.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Everyone has a plan until they get punched in the face. -Mike Tyson

Damn you SI !!!!

 

[Fehler]

I don't think I could impulsively, even if I wanted to, I want to do it "well" which entails a long fast, prepare the medication and glasses of SN, leave the house in good condition, prepare the living room with the makeshift bed, the different notes, the mail so that the police can find me...etc. Many of these things I could do the day before but I will save it for the same day that I am going to do it. The fact of setting a date or at least a week to do it gives me time to meditate and hopefully, mentalize myself.

 

[Whole-Ad]

Currently waiting for my SN to arrive. Estimated delivery is between 3-6 weeks, however I live in the UK and am concerned about it being seized once it reaches UK customs. I've spent a long time trying to find SN sources and this is the only one I've managed to get, so if this fails I will be giving up on this method. I did think about the exit bag but something about it makes me feel uncomfortable, I'm not too sure what that is though. Maybe more research into it will relieve any anxiety I have about it.

To be honest though, if my SN gets seized I'm probably just going to jump off a bridge. My first suicide attempt was also on this bridge, I tried to jump but was pulled back over by police. The feeling was very surreal. I was hyper aware, I could feel the bridge shaking very subtly whenever a bus or large vehicle drove onto it, the view was amazing and I never realised how beautiful my city was until then. I really would like to die there but I have to be in the right mindset to override my SI. But hey, I've done it once so surely I can do it again.

 

[HenryHobkins]

the only way I could do it is impulsively, anything complicated and I problably couldnt stay motivated to go through with it, so im saving up for a handgun which I'll blow my stimulus check on. That plus a few minor things like some booze and a hotel room is pretty much all that entails with my suicide plan

 

[Bedrock48]

If it happens soon it'll probably be partial. Note on front door and closet door, sheet rope like the good ol' psych ward days (belt hasn't worked out for me this time) and maybe a few drinks for SI. Probably put on some music too. I already have gifts ready for friends so I'll just need to edit my note and write it out on paper if I have the mental energy. Pass codes taped to phone and laptop. Think that's about everything.

With more time and planning, I'm thinking charcoal. Go on a nice one person camping trip and find somewhere nice to spend my last day/s. If I used this method I'd figure out sending a delayed email to someone informing of my whereabouts.

 

[GarageKarate07]

Do you guys have a plan?
I feel like I am gonna do it impulsive. One bad thing more and I just do it.

Some people's studies find that going on impulse is the best way and usually leads to success. I will CTB and hope I leave enough warning that I will be found within a few days. If not it will be a mess when they find me after the bills are not getting paid anymore. At most it will be weeks when they look to find me but I hope it's will be sooner. I have made notes and tried to ask what to do with my belongings and valuables.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Some impulsive way, like last time that eventually failed. Probably I'm doing it like I did (if can't get SN somewhere or find better method), but now I'm going to be sure that no one can't safe me.

If I could, I wish I would be somewhere in nature near the sea or lake where I always feel like I'm safe.

 

[Bagger]

I don't have any exact plan. I already did everything i had planned. Bought SN, got meto, stashed if safely. Now i'll just wait for bad enough stuff to happen.

 

[sparkie]

Wait for Lockdown to ease I need to travel to sort a few things out, get rid of any more clutter in my life try to rectify a massive mistake i made in the last two years and then hopefully after a bottle of vodka ill go by hanging

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

When the lockdown is over and I have a secure place to receive SN, I am going to book a night or two in a hotel (to account for potential survival instinct)

I will do a 6-7 hour fast and do the stat dose regimine, but before that I want to have one last good meal, probably the most posh sushi I can get my hands on. I will finish writing all of my letters that day and trying to secure as much privacy as possible.

When the time comes to drink SN, I want to listen to some of my favorite songs and drift off peacefully.

 

[Charaltontin]

I like to think of it as a plan but it's more of a thought when I keep backing out but today's the day I wanted it to kinda be a special day so my birthday, I got my backpack full of stuff, water snacks, and some other essentials but most importantly the rope, pot, and beer, I don't wanna do it in my house where everyone would find me but imma be dead so idk why I care, imma go far somewhere quiet like the woods or an abandoned building, and partial hanging I find it to be my preferred choice, Im not gonna tell anyone I'm gonna do it, so I'm not stopped like before

 

[LunarPyotr]

I'll ctb by injecting myself with some poison which I'll be getting from an certain guy who I knew before my friend died due to DUI (Driving under Influence) aka. his stupidity.

I actually spoke with him about everything and so on and currently I'm waiting for my package. After receiving it, I'll have to find a cold place to to store it :P

Well and if I decide to do it, I'll have everything ready.
If I decide not to do it or find a better method, well, maybe I'll go to a certain place where I used to store certain stuff and give it away to someone.
Not as clean text of curse..
It will look something like this

(Decrypt it if you're bored. It's Base64 encryption)
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[russlinjimmies]

Right now I have planned out the CO method, at least to the point of knowing I want to use the charcoal method in my car. I haven't planned to extent of where I'll park and what date.

I would say I'd consider impulsive but on just very basic trial runs with partial suspension I can tell the SI would kick in, and I don't know of another impulsive method I'd be willing to try.

 

[bloomingdark]

Going to the woods, with my SN, listening to my favorite songs, while drinking the SN and seeing nature, feeling like peacefully falling asleep, no fear,no doubt.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

I'm gonna ctb towards the end of November, like around the 20's. I'll take SN in a pretty posh hotel (I can afford to splurge; it'll be the last place I'm in before my death!).

 

[Odwin]

I'm gonna ctb towards the end of November, like around the 20's. I'll take SN in a pretty posh hotel (I can afford to splurge; it'll be the last place I'm in before my death!).

Don't forget to empty out the bar.