So happy that it's happening soon, is this euphoria hahah

[hivadic681]

If I fail my degree exam on Wednesday, I'm ctb. Planning to do it with a rope. Before I was a little "maybe I shouldn't..." or "I'm scared to do it alone, I at least want my pets to be with me" but now I'm decided. I won't change my mind, I won't tell anyone. I'm so happy thinking I won't have to deal with every day struggles and pain that can't be cured. I'm so happy and relieved I could cry from it!

Wish me luck.

 

[MrDarkness]

Best of luck, I'll probably join you soon, I remember when I attempted. it was the happiest moment in my life sadly if you know the psychological aspect behind it, it's extremely depressing since your Brain and heart is in so much pain, it's trying it's best to keep you happy even though it's your future death, I hope everything goes well and I hope you find peace gl

 

[hivadic681]

Best of luck, I'll probably join you soon, I remember when I attempted. it was the happiest moment in my life sadly if you know the psychological aspect behind it, it's extremely depressing since your Brain and heart is in so much pain, it's trying it's best to keep you happy even though it's your future death, I hope everything goes well and I hope you find peace gl

Best of luck to you too!! I hope you find peace as easily as it can go.

 

[Ferret77]

If I fail my degree exam on Wednesday, I'm ctb. Planning to do it with a rope. Before I was a little "maybe I shouldn't..." or "I'm scared to do it alone, I at least want my pets to be with me" but now I'm decided. I won't change my mind, I won't tell anyone. I'm so happy thinking I won't have to deal with every day struggles and pain that can't be cured. I'm so happy and relieved I could cry from it!

Wish me luck.

Good luck! Hopefully, everything will go as planned and you won't be in pain anymore....I hope you'll finally find some peace and comfort

 

[hivadic681]

Good luck! Hopefully, everything will go as planned and you won't be in pain anymore....I hope you'll finally find some peace and comfort

Thank you!! I live alone and don't have any close friends in the city, so I can do it at home without being disturbed. I'm just trying to figure out the best spot in my home rn :)
The plan so far:
I fail the exam on Wednesday (there's less than 1% chance I'll pass, I'm paralyzed by fear and can't study for it). Go back home, change into casual clothes. Go to the hardware store next door, buy 3 meters of 10mm rope. Go back home, pop all the Xanax I have, soap up the rope, tie the rope to the bar inside my closet (gotta check if it's gonna hold) and finally ctb. No goodbyes or notes. I have some time to think over anything I might have missed.

 

[SVEN]

Wishing you luck with all my heart. And a peaceful trip with sweet dreams.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved to finally be leaving everything behind, to me death certainly is the only relief, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.