Venting So frustrating

[EmpressDean]

I'm so frustrated. I've had SN for 5 yrs and I've chickened out twice to take it. I'm so afraid it's going to burn my stomach and throat and then I will panic and be in pain and call the ambulance. I've been researching nitrogen, but then I ask myself where would I put it when I live with my parents. Also where would I go? To a hotel? Also it's seems so technical and I'm very stupid. I then thought about N. How I wished i got it when it was available 5 yrs ago. But I'm so stupid I couldn't figure out how to use monero and wallets and stuff it's like gibberish. Isn't there any way I can get N? Isn't anyone selling it? I'm so done

 

[blueming]

I wish N was still being sold too… I successfully obtained it a few years ago when D was still selling but I took too long to use it and it got taken away from me because I was an idiot (long story). I wanna punch myself just thinking about it, worst mistake of my life.

 

[EmpressDean]

What the hell?! Yours got taken away? Like someone took it from you or the police? God how does that happen?! I would hide it like a troll and then pick a day and take it lol that sucks that happened I feel for you

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I want N also so badly. It's literally the only method I feel comfortable with. I've always wanted to die in my sleep.

 

[inconstantprayer]

I wish N was still being sold too… I successfully obtained it a few years ago when D was still selling but I took too long to use it and it got taken away from me because I was an idiot (long story). I wanna punch myself just thinking about it, worst mistake of my life.

I believe anything is possible. There's got to be a way to find N still being sold by someone somewhere!

 

[Peter Skellern]

I believe anything is possible. There's got to be a way to find N still being sold by someone somewhere!

Where? Some people on here are prepared to go knocking on doors in Peru in a kind of (extremely optimistic) Indiana Jones way. However back in the real world, unless you're a Veterinarian its a non-starter now.

 

[inconstantprayer]

Maybe we're just not asking the right questions to the right people long enough or loud enough?