Help so damn tired

[tiredtired]

im coming close to being sure on wanting to ctb.

I try to keep myself alive because I don't want to traumatize family, but the urge gets so strong that isn't enough.

Every day in terror or deep depression. Non stop intrusive thoughts & imagery. Autism. OCD. Derealization, depersonalisation. Everything is just painful every day aside from a few hours where I numb out before bed.

 

[bigbang33]

I can relate so much I'm sorry it's been so hard for you. I'm sending you hugs

 

[tiredtired]

I can relate so much I'm sorry it's been so hard for you. I'm sending you hugs

I hope you find peace friend regardless of what happens. Sending hugs back.

 

[Pluto]

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I also feel so tired of suffering, I find it painful to exist as well. But anyway I wish you the best.