Venting So anxious to the point where it hurts

[smpkie]

It genuinely hurts so bad. I get anxious very easily and whenever it happens I get this sharp pain in my chest, making it difficult for me to breathe. I've gotten used to it at this point but it's too much to bear. I can only get rid of this feeling if I completely isolate myself from humanity, which isn't the best option.

The past few months have been extremely stressful for me, I can't even brush my hair without ripping a whole chunk on purpose. I'm stressed and anxious, I can't seem to get rid of that feeling without inflicting pain on myself. There's no way I could possibly distance myself away from my friends again, I love attention and it's truly all I live for at this point, but I don't want negative attention. I don't want the people close to me to even feel pity for someone as disgusting as me. I'm stressed to the point where I can't fucking think straight. I keep biting myself to the point where I bleed and I straight up just slice up my wrists because this is the only thing that makes me feel better.

I'm a very worthless person and I don't deserve friends, I snap easily and I'm no longer the sweet person I was a few years ago. I don't appreciate the people around me enough and I can't wait for summer.

 

[cme-dme]

This happens a lot at work. The sharp pain and shortness of breath sometimes comes for no reason at all. I think most of the time its when suicidal thoughts hit which is pretty often. I think if I didn't have my friends I would have no reason to live. What has been making you stressed out lately?

 

[Crow_88]

It genuinely hurts so bad. I get anxious very easily and whenever it happens I get this sharp pain in my chest, making it difficult for me to breathe. I've gotten used to it at this point but it's too much to bear. I can only get rid of this feeling if I completely isolate myself from humanity, which isn't the best option.

The past few months have been extremely stressful for me, I can't even brush my hair without ripping a whole chunk on purpose. I'm stressed and anxious, I can't seem to get rid of that feeling without inflicting pain on myself. There's no way I could possibly distance myself away from my friends again, I love attention and it's truly all I live for at this point, but I don't want negative attention. I don't want the people close to me to even feel pity for someone as disgusting as me. I'm stressed to the point where I can't fucking think straight. I keep biting myself to the point where I bleed and I straight up just slice up my wrists because this is the only thing that makes me feel better.

I'm a very worthless person and I don't deserve friends, I snap easily and I'm no longer the sweet person I was a few years ago. I don't appreciate the people around me enough and I can't wait for summer.

Do you still go outside?

 

[sadalways]

Can relate, anxiety is such a huge pain and i can't live with it, i've been taking meds for years now, the only thing that helped were benzos but they made me so sleepy all the time and i got addicted to them at one point. I'm really sorry you have to go through that though

 

[dontwakemeup]

I don't think people understand how bad anxiety can be for some people. I definitely understand how you feel. Are you taking any medicine for your anxiety? I take benzos and they help a lot, but there are times when they don't, so I just sleep it off. For me it's been 2 days that I can't eat. I can't taste anything and I have this strong desire to vomit but nothing is there and my throat is dry and it hurts. You are not alone. Maybe try calling to see if you can make an appointment to your doctor if you aren't on medication. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[smpkie]

This happens a lot at work. The sharp pain and shortness of breath sometimes comes for no reason at all. I think most of the time its when suicidal thoughts hit which is pretty often. I think if I didn't have my friends I would have no reason to live. What has been making you stressed out lately?

I guess it's because my date is in a few months and I don't have the heart to tell my "loved ones" about it. Outside of the internet I'm quite an antisocial person, I hate it when people interact with me. I act like an asshole and then get frustrated at myself, I don't mean to hate people.

Have you tried medication? I am also anxious a lot and i need to take benzos to calm myself. Also, i take antidepressants that help with anxiety. One thing is for sure: you are not worthless!

I still live with my parents who genuinely don't believe in mental illnesses such as depression and they don't acknowledge my anxiety. Thank you so much for your consideration, it means a lot <3. If I were more independent I'd try to get some meds, but unfortunately I am not going to love enough to experience that.

Do you still go outside?

Yes, but I don't stay out a lot and I never really leave the yard. I go outside when I can't stand my family, they tick me off a lot by being loud.

Can relate, anxiety is such a huge pain and i can't live with it, i've been taking meds for years now, the only thing that helped were benzos but they made me so sleepy all the time and i got addicted to them at one point. I'm really sorry you have to go through that though

Gosh I'm really sorry to hear that, the world seems to treat the sweetest people in the most cruel way </3 I do hope you're doing better now. Thank you for the kind words, I appreciate them with my whole heart

I don't think people understand how bad anxiety can be for some people. I definitely understand how you feel. Are you taking any medicine for your anxiety? I take benzos and they help a lot, but there are times when they don't, so I just sleep it off. For me it's been 2 days that I can't eat. I can't taste anything and I have this strong desire to vomit but nothing is there and my throat is dry and it hurts. You are not alone. Maybe try calling to see if you can make an appointment to your doctor if you aren't on medication. I hope you feel better soon.

I am incredibly sorry to hear that. Anxiety is a pain in the ass. Sadly, I don't think I'll be leaving my house anytime soon. Thank you for the kind words, I hope things get better for the both of us. Stay safe, mate <3

 

[Electra]

I know that one... It's terrible, like you don't know where to put yourself or what to do. Like you're losing it. Hugs to all who have experienced/ is experiencing this