Story SN-Ingestion Report: My Terrifying Brush with SN-Fueled Hypoxia Hell

[Dante_]

You survived an attempt? Was it similar experience to OP's?

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

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[dalemar]

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Did you go to ER or asked for help?
Do you still have the stomach issues?

 

[Dante_]

Did you go to ER or asked for help?
Do you still have the stomach issues?

No to both.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Yeah remember when I tested my sn too I have no idea how much a took but I ended up in the hospital.

 

[Xiaojiu]

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thanks for sharing! I'm sorry you went through what you did :( I hope you're feeling way better now. Was it an intentional CTB? And do you feel any pains?

 

[Dante_]

Thanks for sharing! I'm sorry you went through what you did :( I hope you're feeling way better now. Was it an intentional CTB? And do you feel any pains?

Way better? Physically yeah I am, mentally...its obviously more complex than that regarding what happened and having the know how of what it actually feels like when your own body shuts down bit by bit. Im still reeling from that in more ways than one. Was it intentional? not quite since I didnt take 20-25g and well I dont count that as a "real" attempt sometimes when looking back, it was done under immense dissociation hence why i could sit through all the symptoms and not call for help once.

 

[Xiaojiu]

Way better? Physically yeah I am, mentally...its obviously more complex than that regarding what happened and having the know how of what it actually feels like when your own body shuts down bit by bit. Im still reeling from that in more ways than one. Was it intentional? not quite since I didnt take 20-25g and well I dont count that as a "real" attempt sometimes when looking back, it was done under immense dissociation hence why i could sit through all the symptoms and not call for help once.

Do you feel like you were kind of traumatized by what you experienced? So, it was just a spur in the moment kind of thing without any prep? Even if it wasn't intentional, I'm glad that you're doing way better I just wanted to let you know that since I have been able to have an account here, I appreciate what you do as a mod for the forum

 

[Dante_]

Do you feel like you were kind of traumatized by what you experienced? So, it was just a spur in the moment kind of thing without any prep? Even if it wasn't intentional, I'm glad that you're doing way better I just wanted to let you know that since I have been able to have an account here, I appreciate what you do as a mod for the forum

Hope @Chemi doesnt mind since this is her thread but okay, am I traumatized? I'll lay it all out there like this :

Its a two part for me, it brought me much closer to understanding why this method worked so well for my friend as it eventually did 4 months ago when she passed when she and i discussed her attempts and many others, sure there's much discourse around its peacefulness and what not but I do what I can with what the circumstances present and since im never on the right side of em, this will do and im fine with that for what I experienced although it was a bit worrying to see my sats drop to 85% 20 mins after drinking it where I thought it would stop but it kept dropping to 80 and 79 then 78%, I even managed to watch anime while I was going through the symptoms before I forced myself to throw up which everything got out thanks to the water I drank and from there, memory is quite a bit hazy since that was right around the time I got really weak and lost consciousness.

Oh it very much was spur of the moment, I took a meto before but that's very neglible since it was a very short time before I drank it.

These are my thoughts alone but it almost scared me as to how easy it works in practicality with some fatal cases ive seen documented myself over the nearly 3 years ive been on ss , how easy it is to be in a precarious position where I did actually need the hospital but didnt think of calling help and thats because the experience wasnt bad for what would've been fatal had i not acted.

Yes also because I know how much it affects people first-hand when I told them, but I was devoid of emotion back then and didn't really think about who would be affected and how they'd react until i saw it, i saw potential in what this causes, what it trades when someone does it and what happens thereafter from the perspective of those left behind.

Anyway, I may be a mod but I broke my own rule from my own thread too, im human and what I did still affects me profoundly in different ways, I can mostly remember the sensory experience up to a point and then its all scribbled apart where I have to pick very specific points to piece it together but it makes sense since my brain was low on oxygen. I guess i could also say it makes being here harder and easier too since I know the thing works on a smaller yet potentially fatal scale as it nearly did but I guess i carry greater responsibility when it comes to the total evaluation of the decision itself and what are determinant factors to me. Not easy to be vulnerable about this since its my one of my more personal stuff but here we are.

Thank you, it means a lot to be appreciated by those who are in this community even if ive been here a while but nevertheless, im grateful to know what i do means something here.

 

[Chemi]

Hope @Chemi doesnt mind since this is her thread

It's alright. It is the same topic as mine, so you sharing more of your experience kinda helps educate people more

 

[Xiaojiu]

Hope @Chemi doesnt mind since this is her thread but okay, am I traumatized? I'll lay it all out there like this :

Its a two part for me, it brought me much closer to understanding why this method worked so well for my friend as it eventually did 4 months ago when she passed when she and i discussed her attempts and many others, sure there's much discourse around its peacefulness and what not but I do what I can with what the circumstances present and since im never on the right side of em, this will do and im fine with that for what I experienced although it was a bit worrying to see my sats drop to 85% 20 mins after drinking it where I thought it would stop but it kept dropping to 80 and 79 then 78%, I even managed to watch anime while I was going through the symptoms before I forced myself to throw up which everything got out thanks to the water I drank and from there, memory is quite a bit hazy since that was right around the time I got really weak and lost consciousness.

Oh it very much was spur of the moment, I took a meto before but that's very neglible since it was a very short time before I drank it.

These are my thoughts alone but it almost scared me as to how easy it works in practicality with some fatal cases ive seen documented myself over the nearly 3 years ive been on ss , how easy it is to be in a precarious position where I did actually need the hospital but didnt think of calling help and thats because the experience wasnt bad for what would've been fatal had i not acted.

Yes also because I know how much it affects people first-hand when I told them, but I was devoid of emotion back then and didn't really think about who would be affected and how they'd react until i saw it, i saw potential in what this causes, what it trades when someone does it and what happens thereafter from the perspective of those left behind.

Anyway, I may be a mod but I broke my own rule from my own thread too, im human and what I did still affects me profoundly in different ways, I can mostly remember the sensory experience up to a point and then its all scribbled apart where I have to pick very specific points to piece it together but it makes sense since my brain was low on oxygen. I guess i could also say it makes being here harder and easier too since I know the thing works on a smaller yet potentially fatal scale as it nearly did but I guess i carry greater responsibility when it comes to the total evaluation of the decision itself and what are determinant factors to me. Not easy to be vulnerable about this since its my one of my more personal stuff but here we are.

Thank you, it means a lot to be appreciated by those who are in this community even if ive been here a while but nevertheless, im grateful to know what i do means something here.

Thank you again for sharing! And I'm sorry @Chemi thar I started asking questions

I like how you noted the people left behind. I feel like a lot of us don't really think about that part. I have been and it's part of why I'm still here. Taking the leap of having control over my death is a big decision to make and it will affect my husband more than I realize. :/

I remember you mentioning the passing of your friend. Again I'm sorry for your loss :( It sounds like it has been really difficult for you in regards to losing your friend. I can tell how much you care and love them. They're lucky to have you as a friend.

Did your experience help you decide whether or not SN is a good method for you in the future?

I see you often as a mod on the site. And you have interacted in some of my posts, so I am always thankful for what you do! Thanks for creating a safe space for us here.

 

[Dante_]

I like how you noted the people left behind. I feel like a lot of us don't really think about that part. I have been and it's part of why I'm still here. Taking the leap of having control over my death is a big decision to make and it will affect my husband more than I realize. :/

Well thats the thing, I didn't think too deeply about that over the last couple of years, at first sure, I realized what having all this information on me means and what it creates for anyone we care about after we're gone.

We are, after all, human and we recognize the relationships we'd be shattering if we leave even if they understood the depths of our pain, struggle and inability to see a life forward without that option ever being out of sight when its the autonomy we have because thinking about it, life as we know it, we gotta live like we owe something to the world because we are owned by it, be it expectations and obligations and yet having this option silences that, it makes having to accept all of that as part of living optional, something thats possible to dismiss if we want. In the end, emotional ties to those we love keeps us here even if we find our suffering to be increasingly difficult to hold back against that.

I remember you mentioning the passing of your friend. Again I'm sorry for your loss :( It sounds like it has been really difficult for you in regards to losing your friend. I can tell how much you care and love them. They're lucky to have you as a friend.

It hurts everytime, she was only 22 and yet for over a year, im grateful I got to see her life through everything, the painful and horrible parts and some of the more down to earth moments where she could enjoy herself for a bit, she was something special still is with today being 4 months but yeah, grateful I had her friendship.

Did your experience help you decide whether or not SN is a good method for you in the future?

So thats the big one for me, the answer is yes because like I said, I remember the sensory experience so vividly but I wouldn't call it terrifying, intense yes but even I exclaimed how surprised i was that it works, its a whole different thing when you actually feel it work within yourself than reading about it for someone else and for how many natural deaths are not exactly peaceful or calming, id say for something that nearly caused my death that day unintentionally (no protocol) im pretty good on how it works, tachycardia was my biggest thing but when you had years of palpitations like I have, not much of a serious problem, the headache was okay nor the minor chest pain which felt like heartburn or when my vision went white, not completely but it just got like which was a sign of oxygen deprivation so overall, id say, for me, I understood why my friend used it when she did and why she said she was grateful to know about it.

I feel closer to her that way since I got that experience and that was without benzos which I swore by and i still do but I could do that again without them if I had no other choice. So overall, im less scared but also more so for what it causes if that makes sense. If I have to die this way then im fine with that basically.

I see you often as a mod on the site. And you have interacted in some of my posts, so I am always thankful for what you do! Thanks for creating a safe space for us here.

Thank you so much for that, its been a bit difficult of late but I truly appreciate words like that from this great community, its given me a lot over the last 2 years so im grateful to be in a position to help where I can.

 

[Xiaojiu]

Well thats the thing, I didn't think too deeply about that over the last couple of years, at first sure, I realized what having all this information on me means and what it creates for anyone we care about after we're gone.

We are, after all, human and we recognize the relationships we'd be shattering if we leave even if they understood the depths of our pain, struggle and inability to see a life forward without that option ever being out of sight when its the autonomy we have because thinking about it, life as we know it, we gotta live like we owe something to the world because we are owned by it, be it expectations and obligations and yet having this option silences that, it makes having to accept all of that as part of living optional, something thats possible to dismiss if we want. In the end, emotional ties to those we love keeps us here even if we find our suffering to be increasingly difficult to hold back against that.

Yeah, I know it's not popular to do here, but I do read suicide bereavement stories and they show up for me on Instagram. I see the weight of how it would affect our love ones. A suicide death is the most painful death a love one will experience compared to other kinds of death because ultimately it's a choice someone makes. And I notice that regardless of the reason (If it is shared or not by the one who dies by suicide), it doesn't make it hurt any less for those left behind.

And you're right. The emotional ties are what keeps me here. :/ If I wasn't married, I would have CTBed a long time ago.

It hurts everytime, she was only 22 and yet for over a year, im grateful I got to see her life through everything, the painful and horrible parts and some of the more down to earth moments where she could enjoy herself for a bit, she was something special still is with today being 4 months but yeah, grateful I had her friendship.

I'm happy that you were able to friends with her! She sounds like a really special person.
And also you sound like you were a good friend to her as well!

So thats the big one for me, the answer is yes because like I said, I remember the sensory experience so vividly but I wouldn't call it terrifying, intense yes but even I exclaimed how surprised i was that it works, its a whole different thing when you actually feel it work within yourself than reading about it for someone else and for how many natural deaths are not exactly peaceful or calming, id say for something that nearly caused my death that day unintentionally (no protocol) im pretty good on how it works, tachycardia was my biggest thing but when you had years of palpitations like I have, not much of a serious problem, the headache was okay nor the minor chest pain which felt like heartburn or when my vision went white, not completely but it just got like which was a sign of oxygen deprivation so overall, id say, for me, I understood why my friend used it when she did and why she said she was grateful to know about it.

I feel closer to her that way since I got that experience and that was without benzos which I swore by and i still do but I could do that again without them if I had no other choice. So overall, im less scared but also more so for what it causes if that makes sense. If I have to die this way then im fine with that basically.

I'm glad that the experience didn't make you scared or nervous of the method. And you're right, it's different to experience it compared to read about it. Was your heartbeat really loud? Yeah, with the fast heartbeat, headache, chest pain, etc. it sounds like you experienced more symptoms rather than really bad physical pain.

I'm just glad that you came out okay in the end! And when you say what it causes, do you mean like the aftermath for loved ones?

Thank you so much for that, its been a bit difficult of late but I truly appreciate words like that from this great community, its given me a lot over the last 2 years so im grateful to be in a position to help where I can.

And you're welcome! Yeah, I know there are others on here like me who see the work you do too!

 

[Chemi]

Me just sitting in the back, eating popcorn, watching you two chat xD

 

[Dante_]

Was your heartbeat really loud? Yeah, with the fast heartbeat, headache, chest pain, etc. it sounds like you experienced more symptoms rather than really bad physical pain.

I'll start from here, uhm id say the heart rate, the first thing I found surprising was how distinctly audible it was and how there was a sensation of feeling it on my face, thats what stood out to me more than anything, it wasnt loud enough that I couldn't hear anything else, it was just noticeable that I hadn't felt or heard my heart beat like that before at all.

I'm quite sure I did run the gauntlet of the more consistent symptoms we see from this method, I mean it freaked me a bit out to see my tongue lightly purple as if I was dead already and lost all color to my blood which that was an indication that my cyanosis had advanced far enough to where even my tongue lost color completely and my methemoglobin levels were probably around 50% especially in terms of where my oxygen stats were in tandem at 80-78% which is really bad since I asked another user here I asked whom I respected greatly.

I did need the hospital but I toughed it out even after I was conscious enough again to move around, it did...freak out my mom how dark my lips were though, I was still a bit weak at that point so how I got on with the day after that is beyond me even since its not like my sats were good after being conscious again, I was still around 82-84 for a few hrs before it climbed above 86, 87 then 88 and 89 toward evening before it was 91-93 before I slept so I guess the plausible explanation is physiology worked enough for me to get out of that without methylene blue since my body managed to work against whatever was still there in my body so that, to me in my analysis of it, was the absolute limit my own body can go before it...starts to fail even further than it did (death) and then the next morning, as i did, I was weak all over again and slept most of the morning away.

The headache was definitely more prominent toward the loss of consciousness, as Chemi said and others, its like a migraine, its not the worst ive felt because i felt far, far worse headaches than that one tbh but the chest pain was very short which was after I drank the SN, I remember curling up in my bed after drinking it as my heart immediately started to work faster, it was almost instant, it was very odd I found it fascinating the further progression of the symptoms went rather than realizing the gravity of the situation, I was like "holy shit, sn works" rather being in panic, also I was calm too but that could've been detachment or something, not sure what.

So...if my life has to end because of a cup of 50ml of SN then Ive accepted it, cant have all the best in life anyway plus my experience, by all accounts for what ive read and heard from others, peaceful or not from their subjective standpoint, was actually good enough for me.

I'm just glad that you came out okay in the end! And when you say what it causes, do you mean like the aftermath for loved ones?

Yeah that especially when I told people I care about what happened, their reactions all brought home the severity of what i did, I know we talk about how lethal it is at low doses but it cant be said enough how much I really, really implore anyone who comes across this to not do what I or even anyone else did here, its running the line far too close. I guess i could say im not ready to accept what that could cause after im gone even I will not be around to see it unfold in whichever way it does for those left behind.

I'm happy that you were able to friends with her! She sounds like a really special person.
And also you sound like you were a good friend to her as well!

Yeah I absolutely miss her a lot but I understood what she was going through since she told me, just didn't think I operated in a world where she still existed to me for a week before I found out she was already gone. That delay...is such a hurtful experience.

Yeah, I know it's not popular to do here, but I do read suicide bereavement stories and they show up for me on Instagram. I see the weight of how it would affect our love ones. A suicide death is the most painful death a love one will experience compared to other kinds of death because ultimately it's a choice someone makes. And I notice that regardless of the reason (If it is shared or not by the one who dies by suicide), it doesn't make it hurt any less for those left behind.

That demonstrates empathy, see sometimes its hard to truly grasp the course of action that this is, the lives it turns upside down, the questions and everything else left in its wake, I can see why and not being PL here but i can see people see it as selfish because its the severing of a relationship by abandonment, one where people aren't prepared to see a world where they live on without you in it. There's ways to try to aid those who are left behind to chart a path of their through which reasons are left behind but mostly, there will always be more questions left behind so not everything can be accounted for.

And you're welcome! Yeah, I know there are others on here like me who see the work you do too!

Thank you, credit goes to the mod team as a whole, I appreciate being able to just help out here as I can.

 

[Johnny99]

Maybe I missed it, but those who tasted smaller amount: did panic and fear of death kick in like "This is it" or was it relief like "This shit is working, this is it" ?

 

[Chemi]

Maybe I missed it, but those who tasted smaller amount: did panic and fear of death kick in like "This is it" or was it relief like "This shit is working, this is it" ?

Both. A weird mix of excitement and anxiety once you realize that "wow, SN actually is really strong and this actually works"

 

[Dante_]

Both. A weird mix of excitement and anxiety once you realize that "wow, SN actually is really strong and this actually works"

Same. Got really excited after it was over too.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

After reading this, I will definitely not test ingest it, I did have that thought a few times. It is however a bit relieving to hear that it really works and I'm pretty sure I have the exact same brand as Chemi so that's even more relieving.