SN goodbye thread

[ForsakenShadow]

Hey everyone, today I will hopefully CTB via SN. I'll keep you guys updated as much as I can

I won't go too much into why, mainly because I'm not good at communicating my thoughts. I've always been a loner, never had any friends irl or online so I'd say that's the main reason, paired with a few other issues I've been dealing with for a while.

I've never really interacted with the forum much, mainly just browsed it whenever I was in a rough spot to feel a little less alone. Hopefully this thread can help others out there in a similar spot.

I purchased SN from DMC back in July/September 2023, along with domperidone. My plan is to take 30mg domperidone, 10mg Xanax, and 25g of SN in 50mL of water tonight at around midnight(around 8-9 hours from now).

Just checked into the motel, feeling nervous, mainly out of fear of failing. Maybe it would help if someone could give me some last minute tips/advice? :)

 

[MathConspiracy]

I wish you a peaceful journey, my friend. No matter what you choose I hope you find what you were looking for. Remember that it's okay to back out, we'll be here for you in any case <3 (Please don't read this as a pro-life comment)

 

[DeadSet]

Have a peaceful journey

 

[Goth_tt_B]

I'm sorry I don't have any tips, but I hope all goes well for you. I can relate to almost everything you shared and I think what hold me back is the fear of it not working and having to deal with whatever repercussions come. So for that I tip my hat to you.. It seems you know what you want so I hope it goes smoothly and you can comfortably get to a better place whatever that be for you <3

 

[Mary Janex]

Just wish you all the best and a peaceful journey

 

[AllAloneAndSad]

May you find the peace that you want and wanted

 

[Lostmyonlyson]

Maybe it would help if someone could give me some last minute tips/advice? :)

Follow the protocol, too much of it and it will increase the risk of vomiting, too little and it may not work properly. Have a safe and peaceful journey.

 

[beeptad]

Hope your journey is pleasant and you find peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.

 

[BringMeToLife]

Good luck, I believe you can success

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Follow the protocol, too much of it and it will increase the risk of vomiting, too little and it may not work properly. Have a safe and peaceful journey.

This. It's a Goldilocks kinda thing: too much and you'll vomit and will probably end up having a painful visit to the ER, too little and it won't kill you fast enough but there's still a risk of death while you feel the side effects you wouldn't with the proper dose because you're supposed to be unconscious by then. Abort if you vomit because there's no way of knowing how much SN came out.

Other than that admittedly grim practical reminder, I wish you nothing but peace. It's never easy seeing someone leave because we all know the road that leds there is full of pain, but that's why we all hope for each other to find peace either here or there. Should you change your mind, remember METHYLENE BLUE, and we'll be here for you. If you don't and if it's ok, could you please keep us posted while you can?

 

[depressedinsomniac]

You are brave...i have read of successful ctb even after vomit....some say to have a 2nd cup prepared...some say it's impossible two down a second cup...i personally would try if i vomited to take a second cup...i hope you find peace!

 

[AmataBlank]

good luck and I hope you find the peace ✌

 

[Forveleth]

Good luck OP. I hope you find the peace you are looking for. Remember there is no shame in changing your mind. We will here for you if you need.

 

[deadbidaylight]

I am so sorry that life has brought you here. Even though you say that you didn't contribute much here doesn't mean that your departure will go unnoticed. You are human, and you are loved and will be missed.

I don't have anything to contribute to tips or tricks, but I'll say if you're having any last minute regrets or hesitation, maybe now isn't your time. You don't HAVE to follow through just because you prepared and booked a hotel. It's a deeply personal decision, and a very hard one at that so if you end up changing your mind or putting it off for another day, don't consider it a failure. It's not a failure, but a realization that it wasn't meant to be today. There are always more opportunities should you change your mind later. No shame, just love.

If you do end up following through tonight, I wish you nothing but peace as you transition out of this life. I hope wherever you end up, it's much better than here and you never have to feel pain, isolation and suffering again. We are with you, and we hear you. Best of luck in whatever you ultimately choose. Goodbye for now, but it's not forever.

 

[ForsakenShadow]

Just finished all of the housekeeping, feeling nervous but ready. I've been crying so much thinking about my family and how I wish things were different… they really don't deserve this, they've always treated me so well but I can't keep living like this :( I'm scared I won't go through with it but I will try my best… mind over matter.

I'll take the 30mg domperidone and start mixing the drinks in around an hour

Thank you all for the kind replies

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Wishing you only the best and sending you lots of love in this difficult time. May you find peace and music for your soul on the journey ahead, whichever way that may be. We are here either way, be kind to yourself.

 

[thebelljarrr]

Peace & love to you.

 

[deadbidaylight]

We are here with you

 

[ForsakenShadow]

Took the 30mg domperidone, finished mixing the drinks. Now I wait
About to take the drink… here we go

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Took the 30mg domperidone, finished mixing the drinks. Now I wait
About to take the drink… here we go

We're here for you no matter what you choose!

 

[ForsakenShadow]

Salty as fuck
Could barely swallow it down
Heart racing
God help me
Trying not to throw up
Vomited
Fuck I don't think I can take the second cup
What do I do
Gonna lie down and try to fall asleep. Hopefully I don't wake up

 

[gothbird]

Salty as fuck
Could barely swallow it down
Heart racing
God help me
Trying not to throw up
Vomited
Fuck I don't think I can take the second cup
What do I do
Gonna lie down and try to fall asleep. Hopefully I don't wake up

You need to either take the second dose, or contact emergency services immediately. Let them know exactly what you've taken and tell them you require methylene blue treatment.

Wherever this path takes you may it be kind.

Goodbye, and go gently.

 

[rozeske]

I hope you find your peace.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

If you wake up and vomit again, then it's probably better you call for help. REMEMBER METHYLENE BLUE.

 

[deus_ex_machina]

see you on the other side. i hope you're at peace soon.

 

[BringMeToLife]

Stay safe kind soul

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you found peace!

 

[deadbidaylight]

It seems as though you most likely have crossed over. I'm so sorry that it had to end this way for you. I hope it was peaceful and that you can now rest.

 

[UnnamedGuy]