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NitrogenAfternoon

NitrogenAfternoon

Finding My Peace
Jan 20, 2025
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What a blessing. I can't believe it either. When i tracked the packaged, it kept saying 10 days expected to arrive, and it kept getting delayed. I was getting anxious about it. Until today, where I have received a sealed envelope sent from Ukraine, and that can only mean one thing. I just felt such relief, and at ease. This is the first time I felt any sort of joy, or anything remotely positive in so long.

While I am in no rush to CTB at this very moment, I am just so happy that I don't feel as stuck anymore. I am so grateful for this site, and that I was able to find it. I was going through so much trying to get my N2 method together and it was just stressing me out. This is better, this is for me.

I am just going to keep everything sealed in the envelope and stored away as I gather the AE and get my plans together. I just wanted to share some happiness, and give my thanks. This is not goodbye, not yet.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,196
absolutely relate. happy it worked out for you, I know tracking is such a anxiety nightmare. 🫂🤍
 
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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
622
i hope you find peace somehow at some point
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
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I hope you find peace and i understand why you are so happy. I also wish you good luck!
 
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areyousafe??

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
478
I can totally relate. Receiving my SN after a few weeks of anticipation made me so happy.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,006
I understand why you'd feel relieved at having the option, I wish you the best.
 
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usernamenoonecares

Member
Apr 18, 2024
77
Do you like run through the test to make sure that the SN you have are real ones? I usually made 2 purchase, one for testing, one to keep for later.
 
danny10

danny10

Banned
Jan 8, 2025
263
I also received it. Now I've put it away to use it later.
 
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ItsAllSoTiresome

ItsAllSoTiresome

Member
Mar 7, 2024
36
What a blessing. I can't believe it either. When i tracked the packaged, it kept saying 10 days expected to arrive, and it kept getting delayed. I was getting anxious about it. Until today, where I have received a sealed envelope sent from Ukraine, and that can only mean one thing. I just felt such relief, and at ease. This is the first time I felt any sort of joy, or anything remotely positive in so long.

While I am in no rush to CTB at this very moment, I am just so happy that I don't feel as stuck anymore. I am so grateful for this site, and that I was able to find it. I was going through so much trying to get my N2 method together and it was just stressing me out. This is better, this is for me.

I am just going to keep everything sealed in the envelope and stored away as I gather the AE and get my plans together. I just wanted to share some happiness, and give my thanks. This is not goodbye, not yet.
I can completely relate to your feelings, I felt a profound sense of empowerment when my package finally arrived. I no longer feel hopeless, now that I have the tools to end things on my own terms the way I want to.
 
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Prescotmunn

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Jan 22, 2025
47
Where is everyone getting it from the same place? Remind me how much is needed
 

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