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Waiting for death

Waiting for death

Experienced
Oct 2, 2023
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Before my bedtime I will be dissolving one tablespoon (about 20 or 25mg) completely full of sn in a small mug. My intention is not to ctb yet. I just want to see if it really works with my stomach not empty. It might be crazy but I'm self-harming myself. Is it bad or a good idea? I did my research and some people said that it's yet dangerous. I just don't care if it's dangerous or not.

Obs: I live 3 hours away from the closest hospital, I will seek for help if it's really necessary, otherwise I won't .
 
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KillingPain267

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Apr 15, 2024
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You will likely vomit and then feel horrible and panic from seeing your nails blue. If you don't manage to call emergency then you might actually die but it could be a very very slow horrible death. I strongly advise you not to do it!
 
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needthebus

needthebus

Voted SaSu™ Member Most Likely to Succeed
Apr 29, 2024
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this seems impulsive and not thought out

impulsive suicides or impulsive self-harming is how sometimes people wind up permanently injured and unable to die. yes, sometimes it works, but sometimes people get injured and are unable to ctb after because they require 24/7 care.

i hope you wait a little bit to get more feedback from others. i am very sleepy and must go, but this seems not a good idea

<3 for you
 
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altkey

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Nov 18, 2024
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This post appeared right under this one for me, maybe you should read it before doing this
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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It will be a bad idea. You should also know a tablespoon of sn is a lot more than 25mg, it will be in grams. Better look for other self harm techniques. Obviously don't self-harm but we can't always help it, especially when in such a state, so better to divert to less damaging ways.
 
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Waiting for death

Waiting for death

Experienced
Oct 2, 2023
214
You will likely vomit and then feel horrible and panic from seeing your nails blue. If you don't manage to call emergency then you might actually die but it could be a very very slow horrible death. I strongly advise you not to do it!
I weigh 98kg (about 215lbs), and my stomach is full. I think I will just vomit. I guess one tablespoon is not enough. I will try it later when everybody is sleeping.
this seems impulsive and not thought out

impulsive suicides or impulsive self-harming is how sometimes people wind up permanently injured and unable to die. yes, sometimes it works, but sometimes people get injured and are unable to ctb after because they require 24/7 care.

i hope you wait a little bit to get more feedback from others. i am very sleepy and must go, but this seems not a good idea

<3 for you
I live almost three hours from the closest hospital. If I manage to ctb today. It would be awesome
This post appeared right under this one for me, maybe you should read it before doing this
Yes, the guy in the post you mentioned is lucky, but in my case, everyone will be sleeping and I won't. One tablespoon seems like a way too much, but I'm aware of dying and I know the consequences and the panic of skin getting a bluish color
 
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danny10

danny10

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Jan 8, 2025
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In my opinion it is a bad idea to test SN this way as you might CTB accidentally. If you're sure of it's purity, why do you wanna test it this way? Ingesting SN is pretty likely to kill you even with a full stomach.
 
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erski

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Jan 10, 2025
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In my opinion it is a bad idea to test SN this way as you might CTB accidentally. If you're sure of it's purity, why do you wanna test it this way? Ingesting SN is pretty likely to kill you even with a full stomach.

Too late for that - result of this tests are now in this thread

 
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Waiting for death

Waiting for death

Experienced
Oct 2, 2023
214
In my opinion it is a bad idea to test SN this way as you might CTB accidentally. If you're sure of it's purity, why do you wanna test it this way? Ingesting SN is pretty likely to kill you even with a full stomach.
Yes !!!
I underestimated the consequences of my own actions !!! I thought SN just might should kill some short and with a bodyweight light, it might be stupid but I was completely wrong and accidentally ctb although I'm planning ctb soon.
I weigh 98kg (about 215lbs), and my stomach is full. I think I will just vomit. I guess one tablespoon is not enough. I will try it later when everybody is sleeping.

I live almost three hours from the closest hospital. If I manage to ctb today. It would be awesome

Yes, the guy in the post you mentioned is lucky, but in my case, everyone will be sleeping and I won't. One tablespoon seems like a way too much, but I'm aware of dying and I know the consequences and the panic of skin getting a bluish color
The bluish color was thing that made me feel a bit afraid to be honest. In less one-and-a-half hour I lost my consciousness even I didn't fast.
 
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Peace2peace

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Dec 26, 2024
361
Yes !!!
I underestimated the consequences of my own actions !!! I thought SN just might should kill some short and with a bodyweight light, it might be stupid but I was completely wrong and accidentally ctb although I'm planning ctb soon.

The bluish color was thing that made me feel a bit afraid to be honest. In less one-and-a-half hour I lost my consciousness even I didn't fast.
How where u save and what was given to u in hospital
 
Waiting for death

Waiting for death

Experienced
Oct 2, 2023
214
A friend called an ambulance while I was unconscious.
 

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