Venting Small things that set you off?

[OliverGarden]

Have been in a depressive slump for months now, and today my favorite mug broke. It was a birthday gift from a middle school friend of mine, and I used it daily for almost a decade now. My mom had cracked it 5-ish years ago while cleaning it for me, and it was usable still - except for the fact all the liquids (e.g coffee) were seeping into the crack and slowly corroding it. Guess today it gave out. My mom told me to move on. She stopped me from digging it out of the trash to glue it back together after I found out online that it was a discontinued design. Only dude reselling it doesn't ship it out, and is from another state. I'm devastated and nobody cares. I'm really wishing I had the courage to down all the 50 billion meds my fucked up family uses and just drink the entire bottle of vodka we have here. We've recently had a successful attempt and a failed one in our community and everybody's pretty shaken up, and I'd LOVE to be one of those caskets so people could reach out instead of doing it while I was alive.

 

[tomame]

nearly my every thought is judged .. while it makes me feel like shit, it still ticks me off not being able to exist unapologetically.

i envy everyone with courage and an intact ego— knowing they don't have to walk on eggshells in their own mind like i do

just validates that i'm a terrible person as i know my experience isn't common

 

[softfur]

totally understandable, when life is shit those small things are all you have. i never thought i could be so sentimental as i am now

and not only do small things set me off, but things that happened a long time ago. the memory of how someone random talked to me once can make me so angry at the world that i feel suffocated. today i was reminded of a time some woman in public forced a hug on me and i couldn't focus or sit still because it was stuck in my head. i think i'm fucked in the head in a way that every little bad thing affects me tremendously, and none of it ever goes away.

 

[ilovenewyork]

leafblowers. should be illegal

 

[Forever Sleep]

Just living to be honest. So many domestic chores make me so hateful of life. I find repetitive noises irritating too.