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TheSoulless

TheSoulless

I'd like to fly but my wings have been so denied
Jan 7, 2020
1,059
I feel you. Waking up is horrible, which is why I stay up late.
 
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lululoo

lululoo

Mage
Dec 15, 2018
558
I feel like death every morning and wish I was asleep or dead.
The hardest are the mornings where I wake up from a dream in which a guy hugged me or cared about me or loved me. Often it's this one guy from my past who I never could be with. It kills me. I wake up from these dreams and I am so sad and so angry about my life that I know I will have to die soon.
 
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Passersby

Passersby

Trapped in space and time
Aug 29, 2019
1,655
Yes waking up is the nightmare because its like hey here it goes again this never ending horrible, miserable, dark, humiliating,degrading, piece of shit cycle I am stuck in starts. If and when I do ever sleep then it is paradise when i am actually asleep but most of the time struggle and can't sleep. Assuming if death was to bring eternal sleep or some kind of peace hopefully then yes it would be great!
" Sleep those little slices of Death ol how I loath them! "
 
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laserfocus111

Student
Feb 11, 2020
146
My worst nightmares in my sleep are not even close to my actual nightmare in reality.
 
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030366

030366

Member
May 18, 2020
26
For some reason anxiety it's always at its peak when you wake up, it's a terrible thing waking up with palpitations, a racing heart and then have a panic attack. There's actually a scientific explanation for it and it has to do with cortisol levels in the morning. It's so bad Sometimes it makes me wish I'd go to sleep and never wake up.
 
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