Sleeping all day as ctb date comes closer

[HereToday]

As my ctb date draws closer, I've gone from not sleeping at all to sleeping all day. I'm awake for maybe 8 hours out of the day, usually when I wake up in the evening. Has anyone else experienced this?

 

[gambardella]

It's quite the contrary for me. I'm kind of restless. When's your date if I may ask?

 

[HereToday]

It's quite the contrary for me. I'm kind of restless. When's your date if I may ask?

I wish I could go back to being restless lol I haven't seen sunlight in what feels like forever. My date is Sunday

 

[Ame]

I'm sorry to throw more questions your way without answering your question, but does this change bother you at all? Do you feel regret over not spending your time differently and essentially sleeping away what could be your last days? Or do you find relief in being able to chip away at this remaining time in a non-waking state? Either way, I hope that this time is relatively peaceful. I haven't really interacted with you but from your postings, you seem like a lovely person. Please take good care.

 

[HereToday]

I'm sorry to throw more questions your way without answering your question, but does this change bother you at all? Do you feel regret over not spending your time differently and essentially sleeping away what could be your last days? Or do you find relief in being able to chip away at this remaining time in a non-waking state? Either way, I hope that this time is relatively peaceful. I haven't really interacted with you but from your postings, you seem like a lovely person. Please take good care.

It does bother me to be sleeping away my last days, I haven't seen the sunlight for days and waking up at 6pm is a strange feeling. Even though I sleep so much I'm still so tired.. Thank you so much, your comments are always so kind and insightful

 

[Circles]

As my ctb date draws closer, I've gone from not sleeping at all to sleeping all day. I'm awake for maybe 8 hours out of the day, usually when I wake up in the evening. Has anyone else experienced this?

Most definitely, every time I've come close to attempting I'd sleep as much as I can. I feel like it's a process to rid yourself of feeling attached to your human self and prepare for not existing anymore or atleast get a sense of it.

 

[gambardella]

I wish I could go back to being restless lol I haven't seen sunlight in what feels like forever. My date is Sunday

Just saw your post on having nightmares all the time. If you are tired, rest. But I doubt the sleeping is all peaceful for you - try to take a walk in a place you like, maybe?
For my part I wish I could sleep. Being awake is only fun when you're not going crazy.

 

[HereToday]

Just saw your post on having nightmares all the time. If you are tired, rest. But I doubt the sleeping is all peaceful for you - try to take a walk in a place you like, maybe?
For my part I wish I could sleep. Being awake is only fun when you're not going crazy.

I do wake up several times, but go straight back to sleep. I woke up at midday today and thought to myself I would get out of bed and go do something, anything, but first I'll just 'close my eyes for a bit'. Slept for another 6 hours! I just have no energy to get out of bed until the evening.
Do you have a set date? If I had the energy, I'd use my last days to do things I always wanted to but never had the courage. Sky diving is one of them

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I'd try to enjot the few things I still enjoy (music, coffee, my dog). I won't spend my last days sleeping too much.

 

[Ame]

It does bother me to be sleeping away my last days, I haven't seen the sunlight for days and waking up at 6pm is a strange feeling. Even though I sleep so much I'm still so tired.. Thank you so much, your comments are always so kind and insightful

I'm sorry to hear that, it must be frustrating then, especially since you say that you are having terrible nightmares. If you like, maybe you could try to force a reset of your circadian rhythm by doing a nuit blanche (I don't know the equivalent expression, if there is one, in English but it essentially means staying up all night) and then turning in early the following day. Even if you don't succeed, you might be able to catch the sunrise!

Most definitely, every time I've come close to attempting I'd sleep as much as I can. I feel like it's a process to rid yourself of feeling attached to your human self and prepare for not existing anymore or atleast get a sense of it.

It's funny because when I read the first post, "is it at all a way to 'practice' being dead?" was one of the thoughts that popped up in my head. I decided against sharing that thought because I feared that it might come across as insensitive or as me making light of things that are in fact quite serious.

 

[HereToday]

I'm sorry to hear that, it must be frustrating then, especially since you say that you are having terrible nightmares. If you like, maybe you could try to force a reset of your circadian rhythm by doing a nuit blanche (I don't know the equivalent expression, if there is one, in English but it essentially means staying up all night) and then turning in early the following day. Even if you don't succeed, you might be able to catch the sunrise!


It's funny because when I read the first post, "is it at all a way to 'practice' being dead?" was one of the thoughts that popped up in my head. I decided against sharing that thought because I feared that it might come across as insensitive or as me making light of things that are in fact quite serious.

I think if I tried to stay up all night I'd pass out around 10am and sleep all day again. I might do the next best thing and only let myself sleep 5 hours tomorrow, then try to stay awake all day and go to bed early. Not sure how that will turn out but only one way to find out lol.
I spend 24 hours a day in bed, even when I'm awake, so I'll try to get out of bed tomorrow.

I guess that could be it, my brain subconsciously getting used to the idea. I hadn't planned to spend my last days in bed 24/7 but hey at least I know I'm ready to go

 

[gambardella]

I do wake up several times, but go straight back to sleep. I woke up at midday today and thought to myself I would get out of bed and go do something, anything, but first I'll just 'close my eyes for a bit'. Slept for another 6 hours! I just have no energy to get out of bed until the evening.
Do you have a set date? If I had the energy, I'd use my last days to do things I always wanted to but never had the courage. Sky diving is one of them

As Ame said you could reset your circadian rhythm. But maybe your body truly needs the sleep, I'll let you decide on that. Once I slept for 3 days straight (only woke up from time to time for like 5 min then went back to sleep) then I didn't feel tired anymore.
It will either be Thursday or Friday, though Thursday is much more likely. No skydiving for me, just hanging out with friends and reading. Reflecting also, though a bit too much.

 

[HereToday]

As Ame said you could reset your circadian rhythm. But maybe your body truly needs the sleep, I'll let you decide on that. Once I slept for 3 days straight (only woke up from time to time for like 5 min then went back to sleep) then I didn't feel tired anymore.
It will either be Thursday or Friday, though Thursday is much more likely. No skydiving for me, just hanging out with friends and reading. Reflecting also, though a bit too much.

Wow 3 days! That's almost like being in a coma lol. If we could self induce comas I'd just do that instead of ctb. Coma for 6 months, one day of living. Life still sucks? Coma for another 6 months.
I guess because I don't have any friends (or anyone in general) to spend my last days with, sleeping away my life just makes sense to my brain.

Your date is so soon. I hope you can enjoy your last days to the max and find peace both here and on the other side.

 

[gambardella]

I guess because I don't have any friends (or anyone in general) to spend my last days with, sleeping away my life just makes sense to my brain.

Your date is so soon. I hope you can enjoy your last days to the max and find peace both here and on the other side.

You can spend those last days with us. I wouldn't want to see you go in complete loneliness.
Thanks a lot. It's hard but I'm trying to appreciate those last days without too much anguish. I really want to go with a peaceful mind.

 

[Skyview]

I do wake up several times, but go straight back to sleep. I woke up at midday today and thought to myself I would get out of bed and go do something, anything, but first I'll just 'close my eyes for a bit'. Slept for another 6 hours! I just have no energy to get out of bed until the evening.
Do you have a set date? If I had the energy, I'd use my last days to do things I always wanted to but never had the courage. Sky diving is one of them

Haven't done sky diving though I have done a parachute jump @ 4000 feet ! It's incredible , once the chute opens and the plane has disappeared there is nothing but silence as you float along , couldn't get the stupid grin of my face for a week afterwards, go for it and enjoy !

 

[HereToday]

Haven't done sky diving though I have done a parachute jump @ 4000 feet ! It's incredible , once the chute opens and the plane has disappeared there is nothing but silence as you float along , couldn't get the stupid grin of my face for a week afterwards, go for it and enjoy !

That sounds amazing! Skydiving is the last thing on my bucket list I haven't done yet. I'm young but have been lucky enough to travel the world and see everything I wanted to see. I'm definitely going to try my best to do it this week