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Checker130

Checker130

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How many of you cannot sleep when your mind is really bad? I can't sleep almost at all, instead spending my time sitting awake dreading everything that could ever go wrong. Then I get so so worn down by the feeling that I go right back to 'time to leave'.
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

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Oct 8, 2023
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If I don't use some kind of medication I will not sleep unless I want to be awake for several days and pass out from exhaustion. It really sucks because sleep is the best time because you don't have to think about or feel anything yet it's so hard to do. I find that having an audiobook or something similar can help a bit.
 
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Checker130

Checker130

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Yes that's true. When I do get to sleep I don't have to think about how I feel.
 
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theboy

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Once I didn't sleep for 3 or 4 days and I was tired and weak.
 
FuneralCry

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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Unfortunately yes, I often find it difficult to fall asleep which is dreadful to me as I see sleeping as the best way to pass the time as after all it's the closest to not existing. All I wish for is an dreamless, eternal sleep, only eternal nothingness can bring me peace.
 
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That often happens to me, it's as if my mind never rests. Even benzos don't help me when I'm like this. I've slept very little these last few days and I feel like I can't do it anymore.
 
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I do imagine endless sleep as completely peaceful. But I understand that's not natural or normal and I wonder why I am fixated with the end.
 
Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

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Apr 29, 2022
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I either have insomnia for days and sleep very little, if at all, or I sleep too much. I have no middle ground.

I often find it really difficult to get sleep, I am a chronic over thinker. I do find, sometimes, guided meditation or sleep music can help. I play then on YouTube and lie in the dark and sometimes helps me drift off.
 
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broth0100

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Oct 23, 2023
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I only have trouble falling asleep if im hypomanic or smthn, when im depressed and feeling the dread i fall asleep a bit too easily lol. I hope u can get some rest at some point
 
Checker130

Checker130

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I only have trouble falling asleep if im hypomanic or smthn, when im depressed and feeling the dread i fall asleep a bit too easily lol. I hope u can get some rest at some point
You too. That's really kind of you to say.
I either have insomnia for days and sleep very little, if at all, or I sleep too much. I have no middle ground.

I often find it really difficult to get sleep, I am a chronic over thinker. I do find, sometimes, guided meditation or sleep music can help. I play then on YouTube and lie in the dark and sometimes helps me drift off.
I only have trouble falling asleep if im hypomanic or smthn, when im depressed and feeling the dread i fall asleep a bit too easily lol. I hope u can get some rest at some point
Hypomanic is in my family. We have two bipolar members including my mother.
 
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