Sitting next to my family and browsing the forum

[FadeOut]

It feels so weird. They're clueless. I love them and yet, I'm going to hurt them so cruelly when I ctb.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

They have no notion at all of your feelings?

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's for the best that family members don't know about suicide plans. After all we live in a world where so many people don't respect the right to die and suicide is so stigmatised. If others know then it could just make things worse. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[FadeOut]

They have no notion at all of your feelings?

They know I am not well, but they don't realise how bad it really is. Sometimes I can fake well

 

[theboy]

Once I spent long hours on my phone checking the forum while my relatives chatted with each other