Sis fears me CTBing. How to react?

[ph0enix]

So I got a voice message from my sis.

She said she had a bad dream about me, and that she thinks about me all the time anyway. She says she is extremely fearful about me CTBing. She said in the dream she tried to save me but saw she was not able to reach and help me anymore (which sadly is true). Sais she does not no what to do anymore. She thinks I am going the wrong way. She says she can't comprehend why I put all my energy and effort toward CTB instead of recovery. She says she can't understand why I give up. She says she sees possibilities which I don't use.

The truth is I will CTB for sure and nobody can stop me. I already told her that in a somewhat clear way. I tried already so mich and she has no idea how bad it really is for me atm.

How should I react?

I don't want to ignore her. I don't want to lie. I don't want to maker her feel even more bad. I don't want to have an argument with her, where I defend my choice and she defends her pro-suffering stance.

Clearly, I don't want her to think I'm not gonna CTB. But also I don't want her to think i'm gonna CTB.


Mh?

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you want to CTB, I wish you'd put your efforts into recovery too but I understand if you've just had enough Just keep telling your sister how much you've tried, and how much you suffer, she may begin to understand

 

[ph0enix]

yeah. but it's so hard … feeling guilty shameful failure sad

 

[FuneralCry]

This is why I personally see it as never being a good idea to tell others about our wish to ctb. It would only just make things worse, I would see it as best to write notes instead to act as an explanation to others. I guess that it's up to you how to react really, it does sound like a difficult situation to be in. The problem is that in this world so many don't respect the right to die and simply could never understand what we go through in life. People should learn to be respectful of others personal decisions, the truth is that not everyone wants to suffer. But I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[ph0enix]

Omg it gets even harder now.
My sister initiated a "family group discussion" where they want to discuss
with me. It seems they all suspect my suicide now. My father said to me he thinks I want to CTB. What should I do?

I don't want to lie. I don't want to make my family feel even more bad. I don't want to have an argument with them, where I defend my choice and they defend their pro-suffering stance.

PLEASE ANYONE ADVICE?

 

[eveparis]

Hey, you can pm me to discuss. My little brother has choose suicide too and silent is the worst. You should tell your sister, it will help her understand that this is your choice. And the love that come from a sibling is good to take

 

[ph0enix]

Hey, you can pm me to discuss. My little brother has choose suicide too and silent is the worst. You should tell your sister, it will help her understand that this is your choice. And the love that come from a sibling is good to take

Thanks I will get in touch.