Since being suicidal, who else’s attention span has diminished?

[Cockney_Rebel]

Used to be a hardcore gamer: Can't do it, now.

Used to binge watch box sets: No longer.

Loved cruising through YouTube videos: If it hasn't grabbed me in a moment, I turn off.

I've even gone off of researching suicide, which has been my life for a long time, now.

Maybe I'm just finally done with this life? I see no point in getting into/doing anything. Things that used to entertain me, I now have zero to no interest in.

Who else has found that their attention span is not what it used to be, since becoming extremely suicidal?

 

[Hurt]

Mine. I can't concentrate on my activities as before.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Mine. I can't concentrate on my activities as before.

It's becoming really frustrating, and making any kind of enjoyment impossible.

 

[ClairyFairy]

I can't do anything. The amount of times I have half written stuff and i cant be bothered to carry on.

 

[overcomingfear]

Things that used to entertain me, I now have zero to no interest in.

same, anhedonia hits hard man. my interests feel barely fun and often i think why am i doing that, whats the point.

Who else has found that their attention span is not what it used to be, since becoming extremely suicidal?

im not extremely suicidal but yes. i have to think and remember what was said to me 5 seconds ago sometimes

 

[FuneralCry]

I have always had a lack of a attention span, which is linked to my low intelligence. I have always struggled with concentrating. It has got worse though, which is also due to tinnitus, losing silence. I think for me, in general I do not enjoy living and nothing can change this. All activities are pointless, all they are is just passing time until we die. I do not have the energy to do anything really.

 

[overcomingfear]

you ask relatable and interesting questions by the way, i like your threads

 

[Bagger]

At my worst i tried everything i can including drugs, and i found that MDMA was helping me with apathy or anhedonia or i dunno how to call it. After few sessions my dark thoughts lighten up somehow, and i had some motivation to do stuff i liked before. I came to terms with some shitty stuff in my life also. However, it was temporary solution. But still i highly enjoyed that narrow window of happiness and motivation.

 

[overcomingfear]

I have always had a lack of a attention span, which is linked to my low intelligence. I have always struggled with concentrating. It has got worse though, which is also due to tinnitus, losing silence. I think for me, in general I do not enjoy living and nothing can change this. All activities are pointless, all they are is just passing time until we die. I do not have the energy to do anything really.

i saw many of your posts and i'd never say you have low intelligence. that's your depression speaking and its not true

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

I have always had a lack of a attention span, which is linked to my low intelligence. I have always struggled with concentrating. It has got worse though, which is also due to tinnitus, losing silence. I think for me, in general I do not enjoy living and nothing can change this. All activities are pointless, all they are is just passing time until we die. I do not have the energy to do anything really.

We share something in common: Tinnitus.

The devil, whistling in your ear.

It's what first brought me to where I am now.

It's truly evil.

i saw many of your posts and i'd never say you have low intelligence. that's your depression speaking and its not true

Well said.

you ask relatable and interesting questions by the way, i like your threads

Thanks, buddy.

I like to get people thinking.

For some, SS is all they have …

 

[Life_and_Death]

bpd symptom

• Chronic feelings of boredom or emptiness.

ive always lacked an attention span. im even bored doing multiple things at once

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

bpd symptom

• Chronic feelings of boredom or emptiness.

ive always lacked an attention span. im even bored doing multiple things at once

Well I do have EUPD/BPD so that explains a lot.

Thanks for letting me know.

 

[time4sleep]

This! I used to love to read, listen to music, watch movies, walk, drive etc. Now I just drive aimlessly, visiting places I used to know.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Well I do have EUPD/BPD so that explains a lot.

Thanks for letting me know.

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i got tired of reading it. it really just cemented the thought of "youre defective" but these are 2 sites ive read recently. i typically just google bpd and see what pops up

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Borderline personality disorder | NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness

Discover the symptoms, causes, diagnosis advice, treatment options and related conditions of Borderline personality disorder (BPD).

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Borderline personality disorder - Wikipedia

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i got tired of reading it. it really just cemented the thought of "youre defective" but these are 2 sites ive read recently. i typically just google bpd and see what pops up

I've watched many videos on YouTube, and understand the 9 traits.

Just overlooked that one, somehow: I must have a short attention span, or something .

This! I used to love to read, listen to music, watch movies, walk, drive etc. Now I just drive aimlessly, visiting places I used to know.

"visiting places I used to know."

Sounds like you miss "the good old days," just like me.

Things made sense back then.

Nothing does, now.

 

[deathisnear]

I completely feel this way. I've been suicidal for a long time and I used to be able to mildly function and still enjoy some things, but now, Nothing works. I am in a constant daze of suicidal thoughts. The things I used to do for fun are no longer, I sit online constantly getting myself into shit and not because I enjoy it, just because it's there. I just feel like i'm in an eternal fog, I cannot wait to ctb and finally get my peace

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

I completely feel this way. I've been suicidal for a long time and I used to be able to mildly function and still enjoy some things, but now, Nothing works. I am in a constant daze of suicidal thoughts. The things I used to do for fun are no longer, I sit online constantly getting myself into shit and not because I enjoy it, just because it's there. I just feel like i'm in an eternal fog, I cannot wait to ctb and finally get my peace

Wishing you a safe journey.

 

[deathisnear]

Wishing you a safe journey.

Thank you, hopefully soon. Wishing you peace as well, and a peaceful journey if it ever comes to that.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Thank you, hopefully soon. Wishing you peace as well, and a peaceful journey if it ever comes to that.

Thanks, buddy.

See you on the other side .

 

[Lost Magic]

My interests and concentration comes and goes like waves. Sometimes I can and need to engage in entertainment type stuff. Other times I just want to fly out of my body and scream to the heavens. I do try to get out of the house for 3 day breaks to various hotels. The house does drive me nuts sometimes. But yeah, I get it.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Yes, but I have been really bored for a very long time. I used to be entertained by some TV and movies. Now nothing; it's more of a trigger than that I just don't enjoy it. Literally everything is a trigger. I spend the days chatting with pal, going on sad and gross subs on Reddit and looking on here. I smoke cigs for something to do. It's really bad.

 

[ClownMe]

I relate to this hard, used to love gaming but now I can't play for too long or I just get bored.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Yes, but I have been really bored for a very long time. I used to be entertained by some TV and movies. Now nothing; it's more of a trigger than that I just don't enjoy it. Literally everything is a trigger. I spend the days chatting with pal, going on sad and gross subs on Reddit and looking on here. I smoke cigs for something to do. It's really bad.

Sorry to hear of your struggles.

Wish I could help.

I relate to this hard, used to love gaming but now I can't play for too long or I just get bored.

And gaming was such a huge escape for me.

It's a shame, it really is.

 

[Marktheghost]

Me. Listening to music is probably the most obvious example. My mind just wanders, and sometimes I realize I've just "missed" one of my favourite songs; just didn't notice that it was that song I'd got to on whatever album I'm listening to at all, until after the song's finished!!
It's hard to enjoy anything to the full these days!

 

[PaxAmerica]

Used to be a hardcore gamer: Can't do it, now.

Used to binge watch box sets: No longer.

Loved cruising through YouTube videos: If it hasn't grabbed me in a moment, I turn off.

I've even gone off of researching suicide, which has been my life for a long time, now.

Maybe I'm just finally done with this life? I see no point in getting into/doing anything. Things that used to entertain me, I now have zero to no interest in.

Who else has found that their attention span is not what it used to be, since becoming extremely suicidal?

Wow. That post could have been written by me. Just add that I can no longer do any exercise or sports due to loss of interest and its me.
My attention span is zero. I sleep all day and ruminate at night. Its no life at the moment.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Me. Listening to music is probably the most obvious example. My mind just wanders, and sometimes I realize I've just "missed" one of my favourite songs; just didn't notice that it was that song I'd got to on whatever album I'm listening to at all, until after the song's finished!!
It's hard to enjoy anything to the full these days!

I feel you, brother.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Yes, and it's just made everything worse, because I can't even learn anything I'd like to. My short term memory has also suffered.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Chronic pain has destroyed my life. A mind preoccupied with pain has no room for anything else. I've lost interest in the things I used to love. I'm just going through the motions. No more. No less.

 

[newave3]

I have the attention span of a squirrel.