Silence and noise

[the guilt i carry]

Previously, I absolutely could not sit in silence, because I was constantly overtaken by terrible thoughts. That's why I did everything with music or video. But now things have become even more complicated. I can't sit in silence because of even worse thoughts and because I constantly hear noise that doesn't really exist. But at the same time it is difficult for me to watch or listen to anything, because I want peace and quiet.
I just want to not think about anything and be calm for at least a second, but I can't achieve this in any way.
does anyone here have the same problem?

 

[qwerty1969]

Yes, it's debilitating. It's just one of the many issues I am dealing with. White noise may help you but only so much.

 

[Sulyya]

Been having an issue with sitting in silence while not being aware of it (doing it right now actually and going to put something on).

White noise is maybe not a bad idea, or ambient music maybe. Something that is peaceful and also is something other than silence.