Signing off in 2 days

[failuretolive]

Hi everyone. I have lurking in this forum for a week or so. Made all the necessary preparations. Now I am trying to cope with the idea that I will cease to exist. Its both a liberating and scary thought.

 

[GasMonkey]

What's your method?

 

[failuretolive]

What's your method?

Sodium nitrite stat dose along with propranolol, tramadol, alprazolam and meto beforehand.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry life has brought you to this. I wish you peace if you decide to go through with it.

 

[failuretolive]

Sorry life has brought you to this. I wish you peace if you decide to go through with it.

I am afraid so. I create only problems for myself and for others. The shame of it is excruciating. I have read that in Japan, people used to committ seppukku to rid oneself of shame or to be rid of dishonor. I like to think that I am doing something very similar. Albeit I dont have a sword and even if I did, I dont think I would be able to disembowel myself.

 

[Girl-shaped Wound]

I am afraid so. I create only problems for myself and for others. The shame of it is excruciating. I have read that in Japan, people used to committ seppukku to rid oneself of shame or to be rid of dishonor. I like to think that I am doing something very similar. Albeit I dont have a sword and even if I did, I dont think I would be able to disembowel myself.

You would also need a trusty pal to cut off your head once you are done.

 

[failuretolive]

You would also need a trusty pal to cut off your head once you are done.

Haha, well. I would like to keep my body intact to save my friends and family from any extra grief.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all, what we are destined for as humans is to cease to exist, there is no escaping this, it's simply our fate as humans. Therefore death should never be something to be feared, rather it should be accepted instead. I always envy those who die. It must be a relief having everything that you need for ctb, I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[purplehearted]

I'm so sorry that life brought you to this and I hope you find your peace. I'm doing the same, but in 3 days I'm feeling the same, incredibly relieved but scared. See you on the other side, friend

 

[failuretolive]

Everything is in order, more or less. Now I just have to do some goodbye messages and instruction for my family.

 

[Girl-shaped Wound]

How are you feeling? I'm somehow still so scared of the process, or maybe just finally doing it.

 

[failuretolive]

How are you feeling? I'm somehow still so scared of the process, or maybe just finally doing it.

I feel serene. I feel as if things aren't that bad anymore. I am relived that I wont have to deal with worrying anymore. I just hope it does not fail me.

 

[Challu]

Everything is in order, more or less. Now I just have to do some goodbye messages and instruction for my family.

Would I need all of those? I only have the SN.

 

[failuretolive]

Would I need all of those? I only have the SN.

I dont know. I am trying to make the experience less traumatic for myself. I am ready to accept some pain, but not a lot of it. I am from India, so getting my hands on these has been easy.

 

[SpiroSundae]

Enjoy your eternal rest. if theres another side, I'm sure ill see you soon <3

 

[MovingOn]

There is no need to rush into anything. For me, I'm waiting to have SN in my possession so that I will have the ability to end everything if I need to. That's the kind of liberation I'm looking for personally, first and foremost.

 

[Outandproud]

Hope you have a peaceful journey and im sorry it all ends like this, but i bet u made a good fight so its all ok

 

[Shivali]

 

[Caustic]

Hope you find your peace

 

[ShatteredSoul]

Good luck

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I wish you the best and hope you find the peace you deserve, whether in this life, or after.