Side effects of anorexia as a form of CTB?

[25dRvS9Ka]

There is not much information about continuing with anorexia as a form of suicide, but I am strongly inclined to adopt a slim lifestyle, if possible dying in a way related to it.

What guides me is to follow this practice as a form of revenge, binge eating was a factor that harmed me a lot in life, it was a response to traumatic events and absolutely no one in my life made a point of providing support that identified this behavior as a side effect.

If I die from side effects, it is not a problem, what is bothering me is that the progress of eating less and less is very difficult, I use psychological techniques such as imagining that the food is rotten, or it will be trapped in my body for weeks as fat, but many times this behavior escapes me.

Another way is to imagine what an anime character I admire would be like eating that food, or with me there at the meal. She would eat practically nothing, the caloric sum of all the meals added together would be around 600 calories, something that I am only consuming in the form of snacks.

Does anyone know of any interesting methods to reduce appetite? I don't want to go days without eating, I just want to eat less with the right incentive.

This is the only place I'm allowed to talk about it

 

[Chili]

It's called VSED. I have tried it, and it's not very effective. You would be surprised to find out just how much our bodies can withstand. To be able to reduce your weight low enough to adopt a "slim lifestyle" you are still going to need to eat calories and drink water, just less of it. Both will elongate your life. If you were to stop both cold turkey long enough, you're A. Probably going to survive and B. If lucky, die fat. I hit the 83 lbs mark and survived, but now have a permanent heart arrhythmia and was taken to the hospital. I also have some other complications that just generally make functioning more difficult. While not as extreme, I like to think of it as getting brain damage from missing a bullet to your head. Bad attempt, didn't die. Now I get to live with the problems. Also, C. It's one the most noticable form of mental illness, I find people can and will say something if you're just dropping LBS out of no where. I don't know your age, but you sound younger. Younger folks are easier to put in the looney bin to be force fed, which, yes, does happen.

If you're a binge eater, it is significantly less effective and you're likely to lock yourself in a binge/restrict cycle if you can tolerate eating 600 calories a day. It also sounds like you're trying to induce Anorexia, which is... A choice, especially if you're not looking to go days without eating and are looking just to eat less. Go on a normie diet or go ahead with your plan, but know it's not effective and will take years to get to a place where you're actually doing any sort of damage to yourself.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

As someone who'd dealt with anorexia, and has friends who's dealt with it in a more health threatening degrees: You're extremely unlikely to die, you're just gonna suffer and potential develop a bunch of pretty bad health issues, that might end up killing you, but it's going to take absolutly forever to do so.

 

[25dRvS9Ka]

It's called VSED.

Thank you for the tips, it is very inspiring. The idea is to take advantage of depression and make it manifest in the way I believe is appropriate.

As my depression gets worse or better, I want the side effects to be present in my physical form. If I reach a critical level of mental condition, I prefer my body to accompany this condition so that my family and friends see my condition as a form of warning. If I need to hang myself, it is clear to the people around me that my psychological state was visibly critical for some time and that my death was not an impulsive and immature act.

I am thirty years old, I have no one who encourages me to eat except my wife, and I do not have friends close enough to see me daily. If you have any mindset tricks that can help with this, I weighed 130 kg, now 75 kg, I am 168 cm tall and I think I am still very fat. Getting over obesity was relatively easy, but getting into a state of anorexia is being extremely difficult.

 

[eljuicioporlaestafa]

There is not much information about continuing with anorexia as a form of suicide, but I am strongly inclined to adopt a slim lifestyle, if possible dying in a way related to it.

What guides me is to follow this practice as a form of revenge, binge eating was a factor that harmed me a lot in life, it was a response to traumatic events and absolutely no one in my life made a point of providing support that identified this behavior as a side effect.

If I die from side effects, it is not a problem, what is bothering me is that the progress of eating less and less is very difficult, I use psychological techniques such as imagining that the food is rotten, or it will be trapped in my body for weeks as fat, but many times this behavior escapes me.

Another way is to imagine what an anime character I admire would be like eating that food, or with me there at the meal. She would eat practically nothing, the caloric sum of all the meals added together would be around 600 calories, something that I am only consuming in the form of snacks.

Does anyone know of any interesting methods to reduce appetite? I don't want to go days without eating, I just want to eat less with the right incentive.

This is the only place I'm allowed to talk about it

As a fun fact, this is the only accepted method of suicide in Hinduism.

Amphetamines are a great way to keep you from eating for a couple of days.

 

[Chili]

Thank you for the tips, it is very inspiring. The idea is to take advantage of depression and make it manifest in the way I believe is appropriate.

As my depression gets worse or better, I want the side effects to be present in my physical form. If I reach a critical level of mental condition, I prefer my body to accompany this condition so that my family and friends see my condition as a form of warning. If I need to hang myself, it is clear to the people around me that my psychological state was visibly critical for some time and that my death was not an impulsive and immature act.

I am thirty years old, I have no one who encourages me to eat except my wife, and I do not have friends close enough to see me daily. If you have any mindset tricks that can help with this, I weighed 130 kg, now 75 kg, I am 168 cm tall and I think I am still very fat. Getting over obesity was relatively easy, but getting into a state of anorexia is being extremely difficult.

You're currently overweight, but you were obese. You've lost some weight. I think it is possible if you had the willpower, but I think you would find getting to an underweight category to be extremely difficult if you had struggled with BED or binge eating. Fat people lose weight quicker. Heavier bodies lose calories quicker because they're heavier. You're effectively lifting more weights as you're taking each step. The less you weigh, the less you're burning, and the less you can eat to maintain or lose weight. You're going to find it harder to lose weight at 75kg than 130kg and progress is going to be slower.

What does your diet look like now? You have a couple of different options, but you would probably do better dieting like a normie and then readjusting when you're a normal BMI. Also, who do you live with and do you have children? This sounds stupid but it matters.

Also, I encourage you not to traumatize your loved ones with your passing. It's you're choice, but leaving them with thoughts like "I could have done something...the signs were so clear, they lost so much weight...etc" Is pretty mean, because we're all just sick. Unless these are "friends" and "family", then I get it. Or are you maybe wanting someone to save you?? I don't get it

Also like @eljuicioporlaestafae meth will get you there quick LOL, and if you were planning on CTB because of your low body weight you'll probably have to overdose on something. I tried alcohol.

 

[25dRvS9Ka]

You're going to find it harder to lose weight at 75kg than 130kg and progress is going to be slower.

I don't mind if this happens in the long term, what I most desire is to reach a state where neglect leads to weight loss and not weight gain.

What does your diet look like now? You have a couple of different options, but you would probably do better dieting like a normie and then readjusting when you're a normal BMI. Also, who do you live with and do you have children? This sounds stupid but it matters.

I usually eat sweet potatoes, beans and chicken, but some days I don't follow this pattern, sometimes we have a snack or pizza on the weekend. My biggest problem is that my exercises "enable" my appetite very often.

I do exercises daily to not suffer from psychosis crises. Gladly, I don't have kids, I'm antinatalist plus my infertility is guaranteed by the hormonal treatment of the MtF gender therapy.

Also, I encourage you not to traumatize your loved ones with your passing. It's you're choice, but leaving them with thoughts like "I could have done something...the signs were so clear, they lost so much weight...etc" Is pretty mean, because we're all just sick. Unless these are "friends" and "family", then I get it. Or are you maybe wanting someone to save you?? I don't get it

You get the idea, things have been more peaceful these days because everyone is on their phones, but back then it was really hard to deal with the situations in the past. Traumatizing is not a primary goal, but if it's on the menu it won't bother me...

Honestly, I would prefer someone to help me with my depression, even though I knew that wouldn't happen cause providing assistance and psychotherapy for people with ASPD is a challenge even for professionals in the field.

Also like @eljuicioporlaestafae meth will get you there quick LOL, and if you were planning on CTB because of your low body weight you'll probably have to overdose on something. I tried alcohol.

I don't really like the idea of using drugs because they cost money, I have ASPD and I would be financing people and companies that I don't agree with.

There is a very high risk of addiction in sociopaths and I realized this early in my youth before trying anything... I've been sober since I was a kid and I don't use alcohol, tobacco, drugs or even marijuana.

Thank you very much for your attention and for reading me, I recognize your dedication and care that you have shown. I am grateful for your willingness to dialogue and talk, if reading is tiring I will understand.

 

[Dot]

Getting over obesity was relatively easy, but getting into a state of anorexia is being extremely difficult.

Anrxia = deepr m.h conditn basd on mre complx issus thn jst wantng 2 lk ill

If u lk up Eugnia Coony tho u wll C hw mch th/ bdy wll hld on & add 2 ur suffrng

Nt advisd

 

[25dRvS9Ka]

Anrxia = deepr m.h conditn basd on mre complx issus thn jst wantng 2 lk ill

If u lk up Eugnia Coony tho u wll C hw mch th/ bdy wll hld on & add 2 ur suffrng

Nt advisd

I'm just getting to know her now, thanks for the recommendation. I'm not sure if I would define her body as a "meta", but I must confess, she arouses a lot of curiosity on me.

 

[JesiBel]

I see anorexia as an unlikely form of CTB, since the body receives nutrients and food, although in a scarce and insufficient manner.

The human body is resilient; it adapts to continue functioning as best it can. You'll definitely get used to eating less and won't have to struggle with it anymore.

Although in my experience I felt much more fatigued and less inclined to do things, I used to get sick more often as well. Today I am just under a "healthy" weight.

This topic always reminds me of the youtuber Eugenia Cooney, I followed her a few years ago, I liked her fashion videos.

 

[Chili]

I don't mind if this happens in the long term, what I most desire is to reach a state where neglect leads to weight loss and not weight gain.



I usually eat sweet potatoes, beans and chicken, but some days I don't follow this pattern, sometimes we have a snack or pizza on the weekend. My biggest problem is that my exercises "enable" my appetite very often.

I do exercises daily to not suffer from psychosis crises. Gladly, I don't have kids, I'm antinatalist plus my infertility is guaranteed by the hormonal treatment of the MtF gender therapy.



You get the idea, things have been more peaceful these days because everyone is on their phones, but back then it was really hard to deal with the situations in the past. Traumatizing is not a primary goal, but if it's on the menu it won't bother me...

Honestly, I would prefer someone to help me with my depression, even though I knew that wouldn't happen cause providing assistance and psychotherapy for people with ASPD is a challenge even for professionals in the field.



I don't really like the idea of using drugs because they cost money, I have ASPD and I would be financing people and companies that I don't agree with.

There is a very high risk of addiction in sociopaths and I realized this early in my youth before trying anything... I've been sober since I was a kid and I don't use alcohol, tobacco, drugs or even marijuana.

Thank you very much for your attention and for reading me, I recognize your dedication and care that you have shown. I am grateful for your willingness to dialogue and talk, if reading is tiring I will understand.

Exercise is really good, but it's not as helpful for losing for losing weight. Mostly diet is important but it can help you lose a few calories which is pretty cool. If you really enjoy it, you can set a limit for how much you eat that depends on how much you burn for the day. Ie, if you can commit to running on a treadmill and burning 500 calories, you can eat 500 calories that day. Don't exercise? You can't eat. Remember, whatever those machines tell you, you should probably do 30 minutes more just to make sure you actually hit 500 cals lost. They can have some inaccuracies, but you'll want to input your weight, biological gender, and height. That'll put you at a net of 0 every day and your natural bmr will be what you "lose". I personally hated doing this, but if you like exercise, some people love it.

For you, you can fast long periods without any negative side effects. I'd recommend picking up some fasting powder or juice and lean into 16:4 eat window to start. You can gradually get yourself to the 24 to 48 hour periods. If you don't live with your partner, throw every piece of food you own away. Cans, fridge, freezer. All of it has to go. Don't even keep it if it's "healthy". If you're in your eating window, chug some water before shopping and go buy something from Walmart under 500-690 calories and eat that for the day while you get used to fasting. My recommendation is sushi. Rice = filling, and the calories are low

I'd probably stop the snacking unless you can fully switch to grazing instead of meals. Pizza is around 300-400 calories per slice, just be mindful that it is extremely fattening. 3 pieces and I'm already close to maxing my BMR for the whole day, if not over depending on brand. I would also only, and I mean ONLY eat in front of people. I'd also be mindful of your eating when you do it. Why are you eating or snacking in private if you actually want to lose weight? The answer is that you don't.

My favorite diet is probably IU's diet (lol), which is an apple in the morning, a potato for lunch, and a low cal protein shake for dinner. You can look for similar diets with similar structures, just make sure you're eating at the same time if eating 3X a day.

I think what you're doing is kind of cringe & wannarexic, but I won't stop you. I also don't think you have the mentality to do it. If you did, you'd just stop eating and wouldn't be asking for advice. There are tons of ways to do it if you actually want to.

 

[SalamiAintThatGood]

There is not much information about continuing with anorexia as a form of suicide, but I am strongly inclined to adopt a slim lifestyle, if possible dying in a way related to it.

What guides me is to follow this practice as a form of revenge, binge eating was a factor that harmed me a lot in life, it was a response to traumatic events and absolutely no one in my life made a point of providing support that identified this behavior as a side effect.

If I die from side effects, it is not a problem, what is bothering me is that the progress of eating less and less is very difficult, I use psychological techniques such as imagining that the food is rotten, or it will be trapped in my body for weeks as fat, but many times this behavior escapes me.

Another way is to imagine what an anime character I admire would be like eating that food, or with me there at the meal. She would eat practically nothing, the caloric sum of all the meals added together would be around 600 calories, something that I am only consuming in the form of snacks.

Does anyone know of any interesting methods to reduce appetite? I don't want to go days without eating, I just want to eat less with the right incentive.

This is the only place I'm allowed to talk about it

It's incredibly painful