should i wait?

[yourrealname]

hey......
i am thinking of taking sn tonight. probably around 2 or 3am. i only have 50g of sn but no antiemetics or antacids or anything.
initially, i was going to wait to get antiemetics and then attempt.

i know i'm going to eventually do it so this isn't really an impulsive thing, but it's just getting more difficult to stay alive with each day that passes.
i'm stuck in a mess, partially of my own creation, and i 100% can't get past it.

idk basically should i wait and buy buccastem or just drink 2 cups of sn tonight and hope for the best??
i'm generally pretty weak so it will probably do the job.
i feel like the majority of you will tell me to wait and buy antiemetics so sdjkhfjkdfhg

also does anyone know where i could buy meto in the uk? without a prescription.
otherwise i'm just leaning towards buccastem.

thanks

 

[HerculePoirot]

I think too. At least wait until you've got all the stuff required for a safe protocol (review Stan's guide). Nothing would be worse than a failed attempt.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[Shiny]

If you did decide to do it without AE, you definitely can still CTB. It mostly depends on if you think it's worth the potential risk/discomfort.

If you decide to try it without AE, realize that you are more likely to vomit. Which, depending on your body and state of being can take a lot out of you. Additionally, if you repeatedly vomit it can increase the chances of being found by someone, as well it being more uncomfortable. And if you throw up, there's a possibility you would need to take more SN in order to CTB. Having said all that, it does save the hassle of trying to acquire AE, and it also lets you CTB sooner.

If you decide to wait until acquiring AE, then you are much more likely to succeed on your first attempt and it will likely be a more peaceful experience. However, getting AE can be time consuming and exhausting if you feel like you're already at your limit. As well as costing a bit of money that you might or might not have.

I think it's important to remember that AE isn't some magic substance that will make or break your attempt. It is just there to maximize the chances of CTB, and to make the experience a little bit easier on you. Many people have CTB w/o taking anything other SN, so that alone tells you that it's not absolutely mandatory. And many people have taken AE and still vomited so it's not guaranteed to prevent it either.

Ultimately, it is up to you. Are you already past your limit, and feel you can hardly hold on longer? Do you feel that living even just one more day is too painful for any words to convey? Would you feel more reassured knowing that you are more likely to succeed if you wait? Are you willing to potentially suffer a little bit more and have a bit higher chance of failing by doing it now? All of these are questions I think you should consider yourself, since none of us can answer them for you.

I hope that my answer could help make the decision a bit clearer for you. I wish you nothing but the best in whatever choice you make ^^