Should I try to reach out to my ex one last time ?

[saturn1402]

No i wouldnt, but if you want you can send him a suicide note when you kill yourself and hopefully he'll think about it forever
and make the note super hateful too that will help with that, you can write notes to other people blaming him for the suicide and that would make it even better since even if he doesn't care about you killing yourself, the people in his life will

I am not a hateful person. I would never blame him for my weakness. And I actually don't even want him to know about my death. I really wish him the best in life. I wish I could be part of his life but you can't just force people to choose you. He's clearly happy so that's all that matters. Break my heart but I am selfish to want him back

 

[_D_]

I am not a hateful person. I would never blame him for my weakness. And I actually don't even want him to know about my death. I really wish him the best in life. I wish I could be part of his life but you can't just force people to choose you. He's clearly happy so that's all that matters. Break my heart but I am selfish to want him back

Then i would just commit suicide and not think about him at all, that's fine.

 

[NitrogenAfternoon]

I am sort of in a similar position, but once the police have had any involvement, then it's truly over as far as contact goes. They will only feel manipulated by you, and though your feelings are genuine and sincere, love is about freedom. It hurts. I am in a similar situation. But if they really wanted you to be apart of their lives, or to talk to you again, then they would have made that clear. If they already knew you were suicidal, then sometimes it's just not something they care about, take seriously, or it just becomes too exhausting for them and their mental health. It hurts to deal with this. I felt the same way, I can't seem myself living after the love I felt either. I can honestly understand wanting to CTB over a break up, loss of a relationship.. I know many disagree on this sentiment, but I truly feel for you... for us, but people like us have to also let it go and that means no contact. If anything, you can schedule an e-mail to be sent if you ctb. I wish you all the best. You are not alone in how you feel.

 

[AuroraB]

No i wouldnt, but if you want you can send him a suicide note when you kill yourself and hopefully he'll think about it forever
and make the note super hateful too that will help with that, you can write notes to other people blaming him for the suicide and that would make it even better since even if he doesn't care about you killing yourself, the people in his life will

Yeh, no to all this. If you love someone, you don't want their life to be ruined. You love them enough to let them go and wish them well. Even if you feel like they ruined yours. There is zero reason anyone needs to make their ex's feel guilty for the rest of their lives. That's not love, that's obsession. No.

 

[_D_]

Yeh, no to all this. If you love someone, you don't want their life to be ruined. You love them enough to let them go and wish them well. Even if you feel like they ruined yours. There is zero reason anyone needs to make their ex's feel guilty for the rest of their lives. That's not love, that's obsession. No.

i feel like she's obsessed

 

[AuroraB]

i feel like she's obsessed

true love walks away and leaves no trace of revenge.

 

[_D_]

true love walks away and leaves no trace of revenge.

that's not even true

 

[Reflection]

It won't make him want you back. It certainly won't make him care retrospectively about you. He'll just think "wow, that was a lucky escape". Once more, HE DOESN'T CARE.

From her replies she understands that, she wants to CTB to end her pain which is from losing him, not for him "to want her back".

 

[Richard Langford]

From her replies she understands that, she wants to CTB to end her pain which is from losing him, not for him "to want her back".

As you've quoted me I'll respond. No, I don't think she does.

 

[Reflection]

As you've quoted me I'll respond. No, I don't think she does.

Well at the very least that's what she says here

I womt do it for him to care about me I want to do it because the pain of living without him is unbearable and I feel like it was all my fault

 

[Richard Langford]

Well at the very least that's what she says here

Again, because you've quoted me I'll respond. The lady doth protest too much, methinks.

 

[slamjoetry]

God, please don't. I'm going through the exact same thing, except in my case it's been a year. I know that's a long time to be hung up on an ex, but I'm sure I would have gotten over her much sooner if I never tried to reach out. But I kept trying and re-opening the wound. I think the lack of response is a response in and of itself. It's your ex saying "I don't care", and it'll hurt each and every time. I rationalized to myself "well maybe if I was persistent enough", "maybe if I said the right words", "maybe if she knew I was going to CTB", but it was all wrong. Truly, the only thing you can do is try your hardest to put your ex out of your mind and move on. Trust me, sometimes I feel like I can't do it without her in my life, but at a point you gotta realize that no matter what you do, no matter what you say, they may never be back in your life. And if they come back, it has to be on their terms since they cut you off. And you can't be sitting by the phone waiting for it to happen either. I know it feels impossible, and there's nothing you can change about him, but you can change you. Like I said, I'm struggling with this as well, so I'm not entirely sure how to go about moving on, but I think making new friends and meeting new people is a good start. I'm about to try doing that myself. It'll probably be a while before you meet someone that you really click with and won't ghost you (cause in my experience, most people are phony), but you gotta keep trying. The last thing I wanna say is, if you really love him, you need to let him go. That's what he wants you to do. That's want he needs from you to be happy. I'm tearing up a bit typing this because I'm struggling to swallow that pill. But I'm trying my hardest to believe in myself and be the best person I can be. And I know you can do it too. Best wishes, and don't be afraid to reach out if you want to talk.

 

[lawlietsph]

I completely feel your pain. I am still in love with a guy who only played with me, told me everything I wanted to hear, then threw me away like a piece of trash.
I made a complete fool of myself many times, sending him 10 minute long voice messages where I try to explain to him how much he hurt me. Still to this day he doesn't understand. He keeps me around and every time I see his message, I feel deep fear, not happiness anymore.
I wish there was a solution. If you want to talk, I am here. Only time can heal you, but it's going to take a lot of time At least that it what people say...

 

[saturn1402]

As you've quoted me I'll respond. No, I don't think she does.

Richard what is exactly wrong with you? Why you believe to know what I think and what I don't based on one thread?

read all my comments and maybe MAYBE you will understand something. Otherwise pls just leave me alone and spare me your comments cause they are not welcome

 

[Richard Langford]

Richard what is exactly wrong with you? Why you believe to know what I think and what I don't based on one thread?

read all my comments and maybe MAYBE you will understand something. Otherwise pls just leave me alone and spare me your comments cause they are not welcome

I responded ONLY because people pointedly quoted me and asked ME a question. I was responding to THEM not you. However, I'll just ignore your threads henceforth (and anyone quoting me here) and my apologies if my frank opinions caused offence.