akiyama346
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- Aug 11, 2025
- 11
I never tried it before, never had access to it. I've felt this way for maybe five years or so. Well, I know the answer is obvious, but it's so hard to access. And nobody gives a shit about how I feel, not my parents nor any institution nor my friends nor anybody else. You know, a few years ago I was actually given a number for counseling when I was getting investigated by the FBI but I had lost that pretty quick and never called, I was like 15 back then. That's a long story, I won't get into that. But, I have no fucking idea what to do. I need some support system, I need some actual help. Beyond the mental stuff, I live in poverty and I can't learn a trade or join the military because I have a chronic skin condition: so the two quickest paths out of poverty immediately gone. And I felt extremely suicidal and failed out when I was in college, I really felt like killing myself even more back then (like all day, from when I board the bus to school to going home): now the feeling comes every once in a while and I feel better than I did back then.
But basically, should I try to get some counseling? Worst case scenario things stay the same, best case: I get a little improvement. Been thinking maybe a university clinic because they're affordable
But basically, should I try to get some counseling? Worst case scenario things stay the same, best case: I get a little improvement. Been thinking maybe a university clinic because they're affordable