Should I kill myself on my birthday?

[sirrac]

Its in a few days. I'm genuinely not sure if I should. I hate my life right now. If somebody tells me yes or no, I'll do whatever they tell me. Just no therapy.

 

[davidtorez]

Noone can tell you what to do with your life. It is your life to do what you want. My birthday was last week and I had the same thoughts as you, obviously they were only thoughts.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Only you know when the time is right, so no one can tell you when to do it. All I know is, I've thought about doing it on my birthday in the past, but I'm also thinking about doing it on Halloween, either this year or next.

 

[genoke]

I had same thoughts but just for me at my age I'm almost nearing 40 so it's better to go out while I still have at least a shred of potential left and wasn't a proven life loser who never got married or had kids.

 

[donxtwait]

No one can or deserves to tell you that decision. It's your right. I've had thoughts of doing it on my birthday too before though, but it's not my birthday now. My time hasn't come yet if it turns out that way.

 

[Ariii]

It's up to you. If you do decide to do so, just make sure that it's a date that'll actually work and not only chosen based on it's poeticness

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand it's dreadful suffering in an existence you hate but anyway I wish you all the best in whatever you decide.

 

[sirrac]

Thank you everyone, I think I won't do it for now. A very good friend of mine passed away by suicide and I'm still grieving over their death. I'm not ready to inflict that on other people I know just yet.

 

[Mizzlizzy]

It's your choice to make, like everyone's been saying. I'm sorry you're going through this.

 

[avoid]

It seems you already made up your mind. But for what it's worth, I wouldn't commit suicide on my birthday. I think a birthday should allow family and friends to remember you fondly without being reminded that it's also the day you died. Perhaps add a buffer week before and after the birthday too.

 

[sirrac]

nvm i changed my mind lol. im going to a train track and killing myself because i dont have time for another method, thanks everyone

 

[null_blank]

Whatever your choice, may you find peace c:

 

[AbusedInnocent]

Do you find it appealing to have lived a whole number of years?

It really doesn't matter what day you die on, the choice is yours.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

It's up to you. It's your choice

 

[sirrac]

Update: So I wrote a note, went to the train tracks. The first train that came I tried to jump in front of but my body wouldn't let me. Afterwards, I waited 45 minutes for another train but it didn't come. I went home and went for a run. I wouldn't say I'm free of suicidal idealation, but my impulse for today is gone. At least for today I want to live.

 

[imsotired35]

No. The fact you're asking for a yes OR NO answer and because you keep changing your mind shows to me you're not 100% sure.

 

[sirrac]

No. The fact you're asking for a yes OR NO answer and because you keep changing your mind shows to me you're not 100% sure.

i'm just not a very decisive person at all about anything. i usually struggle and change my mind on mundane things a lot too

 

[Glenferd666]

It's a terrible existence, I understand why you want this. Anyways, best of luck with your decisions, whatever you decide to do

 

[sugarb]

If I could pick any day to die, I'd pick my birthday. Only one day to mourn, and it's neater. If you should do it is your business

 

[KelseaSofia]

I had same thoughts but just for me at my age I'm almost nearing 40 so it's better to go out while I still have at least a shred of potential left and wasn't a proven life loser who never got married or had kids.

My 40th is near and for similar reasons I would like to go before then as well. You are not a loser for those reasons I promise. Also I saw your post on the firearms - nice work.

 

[KelseaSofia]

My 40th is near and for similar reasons I would like to go before then as well. You are not a loser for those reasons I promise. Also I saw your post on the firearms - nice work.

@genoke Hi, not sure if you're interested in connecting but I sent you a DM.

 

[sirrac]

I had same thoughts but just for me at my age I'm almost nearing 40 so it's better to go out while I still have at least a shred of potential left and wasn't a proven life loser who never got married or had kids.

By the way, you're not a loser. Marriage or kids don't mean anything about your own inherent value, which you have

 

[potatocube]

My birthday is before time slips into 2025, and I kind of set it as deadline. Otherwise I'll just do nothing and keep procrastinating.
But I vote for no. And if you already have your birthday or it's coming up, happy birthday