Shit poem about the age old dilemma

[Toobrokentofix]

I got this deleted from a recovery forum yesterday even though its more of a weighing up poem rather than a suicide poem. I had put a trigger warning but no-one spoke to me they just removed it.bthat reminded me why I don't really fir anywhere else unless I can be 100% to "rexovery" made me feel so ahit and alone. Anyway

Dialectic dilemma

Fragments of mind
Shattered and colliding
Losing my grip and feel myself sliding

Lower and deeper in this void of confusion
What is the truth
I reach no conclusion

I search for the answers
But my transient soul
It's too broken to fix
All alone in this hole

Don't want to leave but I really can't stay
I just need to make all the thoughts go away

The feeling of emptiness is too much to bear
But feeling my feelings
Takes me somewhere

That I don't want to go
And I'm too scared to rest
Where I'm trapped with all the parts of myself I detest

Body on fire and memories race
Don't know how to let go
Or how to embrace

The past is too painful
The future unknown
I don't want to be here
Nowhere feels like home

Nowhere feels safe when I'm lost in my head
I want to survive and I want to be dead

 

[Forever Sleep]

I find it baffling the way people aren't allowed to express themselves honestly. It's not offensive. It sums up the uncomfortable confusion I think a lot of us feel. I'm sorry it got removed from the other forum. I think a lot of people will relate to it here. It's really good in my opinion. Thanks for sharing it.

 

[EyesOfNight]

Lovely poem! Every verse is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

 

[mortuarymary]

Great poem