Severely contemplating tonight

[WildAtHeart]

I haven't been active here for a while, because I thought I was getting better but tonight I've just been hit with a wave of sadness and I may ctb tonight by hanging.

I will likely just lurk here for a while looking at some other posts until I make my mind up

This may be goodbye unless I end up not doing it, we will see. But if it is goodbye I wish the best for you all

 

[failureofahuman]

Goodbye or not goodbye. I've been feeling urges too

 

[ShackledSoul]

To leave or not to leave, may you find peace wherever you go, my friend.

 

[rs929]

I think you should hold back. This is the same I keep telling myself. If you have an urge to die, but you haven't really made up your mind with a rationale decision, then hold back.
I think that when you REALLY want to die, you don't act on an urge. You carefully plan your death, make preparations etc.
So, I'm sorry you have to go through this, and I hope I don't sound invalidating, but hang in there. Don't act upon a wave of sadness.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best as well.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I'm sorry you are feeling so very sad, and I hope the wave will subside either way. Sending love and hugs

 

[spicerymer]

I haven't been active here for a while, because I thought I was getting better but tonight I've just been hit with a wave of sadness and I may ctb tonight by hanging.

I will likely just lurk here for a while looking at some other posts until I make my mind up

This may be goodbye unless I end up not doing it, we will see. But if it is goodbye I wish the best for you all

I relate to this a lot.
I feel as if I'm faking just how bad I feel because of the fact I've been doing better recently. I just have no ambition for my life to progress and it's getting embarrassing now.
Stuck on how I'd ctb tho..

 

[WildAtHeart]

I think you should hold back. This is the same I keep telling myself. If you have an urge to die, but you haven't really made up your mind with a rationale decision, then hold back.
I think that when you REALLY want to die, you don't act on an urge. You carefully plan your death, make preparations etc.
So, I'm sorry you have to go through this, and I hope I don't sound invalidating, but hang in there. Don't act upon a wave of sadness.

I didn't do it, I called Samaritans (suicide/mental health support line)

 

[T-Heart]

I didn't do it, I called Samaritans (suicide/mental health support line)

You will end up drugged and locked up in an asylum, don't trust any "support line" because no one understands you.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

@T-Heart I think Samaritans are in the UK in which case it's incredibly hard to get sectioned here so no need to scare the OP. And there's nothing wrong with calling a support line.

@WildAtHeart I hope they were able to make you feel a bit better. I've not called them myself but heard good things about them.