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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,421
Hi,

What do you think about a suicide date and stick to it.

I saw the film *The Fire Within*, and they set a date of July 23rd for CTB... Another film, *Osol*, August 31st, where the hero overdoses on the day of his leave, August 31st.

Suzanne Lothar committed suicide the day before the 5th anniversary of her husband's death...

What do you think? Set a date or a window of 2 or 3 days in case something comes up on the day itself.
 
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RottenSoul

RottenSoul

Disociating through life
Dec 20, 2021
17
I think setting a date that is a few weeks or months from the present is better since you will have time to think of it and decide whether you actually want to give up or continue living to try to get better. Also if you actually decide you will ctb you will most likely be way less impulsive and anxious at the moment of the act, so yeah it sounds like a good idea.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,421
Je pense qu'il vaut mieux fixer une date dans quelques semaines ou quelques mois, car vous aurez le temps d'y réfléchir et de décider si vous voulez vraiment abandonner ou continuer à vivre pour essayer d'aller mieux. De plus, si vous décidez réellement de mettre fin à vos jours, vous serez probablement beaucoup moins impulsif et anxieux au moment de l'acte. Donc oui, cela me semble une bonne idée.
Thanks for your advices
 
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,329
I'd prefere to do it impulsively because setting a date would cause me too much stress. But everyone is different. And even if you set a date, your SI may stop the attempt. It may be different with legal euthanasia if your family supports you in your last days. I'd like to ask for euthanasia because of my illnesses but in an ideal world, I'd prefere to drink N at home when I want to do it.

One thing is sure : the more we overthink about it, the less we do it... I hope you'll find the best solution.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,421
The problem is that the SN (sudden awakening) can't be done on a whim... You have to follow the "protocol" for at least one day: don't eat lunch if you're having the SN in the evening, prepare the three glasses and everything, weigh the quantities... It can't be instinctive like jumping or shooting a gun.
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,259
You know what it depends on the method, some need careful planning and some you can do on a whim. I would have to plan mine, and I haven't been very good at it up until now, hence the reason I am still here. On a side note: Globally, over 1,970 people die by suicide every day, which equates to one person every 40 seconds according to the World Health Organization.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Student
Jun 4, 2026
139
Whar do i do if i always like to procrastinate on.... dead. lines?
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,421
I'd love to jump, but I haven't found anything better than 350km from home, and I don't drive...
 
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Chris6666

Member
Jun 11, 2026
16
I set 07/07/2026 for the last date (before possible).
Its my birthdate.
On 13/07/2026 is a court date, that destroys my life.
So, its gonna be done on 07/07/2026 or before...
I do N2 with exit bag, and a lot testing before. So I'm gonna pretty sure, it works...
 
dustoff

dustoff

Member
Apr 15, 2026
85
it doesn't work for me. even if i set the deadline i'll just forget that i need to kms or won't do it because apparently i feel too fine on this specific day to do it. sometimes i suffer from strong headache, toothache or weeks long insomnia streak or some random social interaction pissed me off to the tears, in such situations i find ctbing really tempting to end all pain in an instant. its probably how this all will end for me; ctbing from getting extremely sick, bored or frustrated. admittedly i had a lof of days like that but there's always a barrier (like my setup to kill me instantly with minimal prepartion still issn't ready in the resources and research terms) or pain wasn't intense enough like im not ready to die to escape mild discmofort but getting a root canal infection and not having painkillers at hand is enough to make me choke myself with bare hands to briefly experience loss of consciousness for hours untill i get sweet painkillers or killing myself in this specific situtation because im already in pain and inflicting additional damage won't make a big difference.
 
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peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
430
Not so simple as life happens and can't always control unforeseen events and circumstances.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,421
It's incredibly frustrating not having a method I can use in 5 minutes...like jumping off a building or using a pistol
 
shikaiqk

shikaiqk

Word misschien geplaatst in gesloten instelling
May 18, 2026
2
if i were to plan my suicide. i would do one or two weeks because anything can happen to me.. so i would like to do it earlier.. but i wouldnt know what to do in those two weeks then beside watching anime and get inspo from videos of people committing suicide.. but its comforting that i have a tall building 15 to 25 minutes away from me in which i could jump off if i really needed to do it
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,421
Si je devais planifier mon suicide, je m'y prendrais une ou deux semaines à l'avance, car tout peut m'arriver. J'aimerais donc le faire plus tôt. Mais je ne saurais pas quoi faire pendant ces deux semaines, à part regarder des animes et m'inspirer de vidéos de suicides. C'est toutefois rassurant de savoir qu'il y a un immeuble à 15-25 minutes de chez moi d'où je pourrais sauter si besoin était.
You are very lucky😭
 
DoomedDarkCircles

DoomedDarkCircles

Member
Feb 23, 2024
74
If I truly remain anguished, I will CTB a few months after my graduation in 2027
 

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