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tatumtots

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I did it. I put the money down and actually ordered SN. It was incredibly easy actually. For a long time my plan had been to try to buy a gun but this is difficult bc I can't drive and I worry about being able to keep a straight face/not burst into tears in front of the store owners. I've been reading more about N and it's exactly how I want to go. I drafted out the notes I want to leave behind and am making final arrangements. I even have an outfit I want to be buried in picked out. I feel so peaceful for the first time in months. The obsessive thoughts and pain are going to end. I think this sense of relief is how I know I'm doing the right thing.
 
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She/Her ✨ Achieving True Peace
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I'm in the same position. Ordered it a couple days ago. Weird feeling, eh? Wish you peace with whatever path you choose :hug:
 
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tatumtots

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I'm in the same position. Ordered it a couple days ago. Weird feeling, eh? Wish you peace with whatever path you choose :hug:
You too :)
My order got canceled :( fuck this
 
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tatumtots

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I did it. I put the money down and actually ordered SN. It was incredibly easy actually. For a long time my plan had been to try to buy a gun but this is difficult bc I can't drive and I worry about being able to keep a straight face/not burst into tears in front of the store owners. I've been reading more about N and it's exactly how I want to go. I drafted out the notes I want to leave behind and am making final arrangements. I even have an outfit I want to be buried in picked out. I feel so peaceful for the first time in months. The obsessive thoughts and pain are going to end. I think this sense of relief is how I know I'm doing the right thing.
Okay so original order got canceled but I found another seller on a popular shopping website. It's coming all the way from Turkey so it's going to take a minute. I'm so anxious waiting
 
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Okay so original order got canceled butI found another seller on a popular shopping website. It's coming all the way from Turkey so it's going to take a minute. I'm so anxious waiting
Wish you the best. Have heard that one takes a while.. month ish to get. Also best to censor website name (edit post)
 
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Wish you the best. Have heard that one takes a while.. month ish to get. Also best to censor website name (edit post)
I fixed it thank you
 
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I am sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I know that for many people it can be a relief just having a way to exit this world for when the time is right for them. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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