sense of bliss before attempting

[ValkyrieCain]

I know this may sound weird but before I try to attempt or plan on attempting there's always a sense of bliss and peacefulness that accompanies my thoughts before I even proceed with my method. Thou when planning with my. mind set on attempting at specific dates I always feel a sense of bliss and peace before hand; even with all my failed attempts by overdose 3 times and by hanging there was always a sense of bliss that accompanied it before I even attempt; the exact same feeling I feel tonight I plan on attempting tomorrow while drunk ; jumping off a bridge with my mind set on it and right now I just feel a sense of bliss and peacefulness that I would soon get to be free

 

[Hotsackage]

Trust me if i knew I had a way out of this shithole, I'd take it instantly, and feel that bliss. Sorry had a bit to drink

 

[Lo$t95]

Sounds like a weight off your shoulders kind of relief feeling - enjoy your night.

 

[ValkyrieCain]

Sounds like a weight off your shoulders kind of relief feeling - enjoy your night.

thank you; its close to that feeling, like finally all my problems and thoughts and emotions would eventually all cease and I would experience a sense of freedom from them; that expectations brings peace, joy and sadness at the same time

Trust me if i knew I had a way out of this shithole, I'd take it instantly, and feel that bliss. Sorry had a bit to drink

its all good. I'd say the hardest thing about dying is finding a way to die without si kicking in

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I know this may sound weird but before I try to attempt or plan on attempting there's always a sense of bliss and peacefulness that accompanies my thoughts before I even proceed with my method. Thou when planning with my. mind set on attempting at specific dates I always feel a sense of bliss and peace before hand; even with all my failed attempts by overdose 3 times and by hanging there was always a sense of bliss that accompanied it before I even attempt; the exact same feeling I feel tonight I plan on attempting tomorrow while drunk ; jumping off a bridge with my mind set on it and right now I just feel a sense of bliss and peacefulness that I would soon get to be free

when you made your attempts. i guess you felt the sense of bliss all the way through the attempt , no "si" kicking in creating reasons or panic to abort ?

 

[monstercatering]

I know this may sound weird but before I try to attempt or plan on attempting there's always a sense of bliss and peacefulness that accompanies my thoughts before I even proceed with my method. Thou when planning with my. mind set on attempting at specific dates I always feel a sense of bliss and peace before hand; even with all my failed attempts by overdose 3 times and by hanging there was always a sense of bliss that accompanied it before I even attempt; the exact same feeling I feel tonight I plan on attempting tomorrow while drunk ; jumping off a bridge with my mind set on it and right now I just feel a sense of bliss and peacefulness that I would soon get to be free

I had a similar feeling in my last attempt. I had a very frantic day before the attempt, and backed out from jumping and decided to overdose on bendadryl. Unfortunately that is a non-method and I was caught very early, but before I was caught and I drifted off to sleep with the most peaceful feeling that it would finally be over.

 

[ValkyrieCain]

when you made your attempts. i guess you felt the sense of bliss all the way through the attempt , no "si" kicking in creating reasons or panic to abort ?

Si kicked in to abort my previous jumping, thou when i planned it out with the intention of doing it, the was a sense if peace that accompanied it