selfish altruism preventing me from ctb

[LittleMagician]

There are only two reasons why I have not ctb, inaccessibility to sn or any other viable method with a high success rate and also my inherent selfish altruism. Apparently I serve a purpose to some people in this world (though it can be heavily debated) one of whom is my mother obviously and other family members including siblings etc. I am basically going on living because I do not want to traumatise my family (especially the younger members) and obstruct them from being mentally okay just because I cannot bare to live. I am not sure if anyone else feels this way or if it's common.

 

[Lost Kin]

Well for me, it's exactly the same reason. I also just live on, so I don't hurt others. Even when I sometimes think that no one cares for me, I do know that's not right, and I would end up hurting the people I most care for if I decided to ctb. So I just keep on living and try not to bother or worry others with my problems.