self-sabotage

[autisticalex]

do u subconciously self-sabotage? I think I do, to bring about pain and suffering to myself. I'm not sure if It is just cause I make ppl hate me subconciously but I think it's due to the fact of my disorders, everyone expects me to be like a normal person and they aren't lenient.

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

I do yes I under it usually with my finances or my jobs I feel as though I won't be here much longer do I do things without considering the consequences

 

[autisticalex]

I think I constantly have autisitc meltdowns and it freaks everyone out especially women lol

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

I just get in fits every fall or winter where I try to self sabotage my life to get me over that final straw

 

[StuckAF]

I do. Anyone who expresses interest in me gets blown away. I don't let myself enjoy life

 

[autisticalex]

I do. Anyone who expresses interest in me gets blown away. I don't let myself enjoy life

i pushed away my friend and we can never be friends again really because of my actions, i had an autsitic meltdown and now she thinks i am weird and crazy and definitely doesn't want to speak ever again. Just another woman that thinks I am ugly and a weirdo, nothing new. I wanted to kill myself anyway and talking to her made me feel good and I enjoyed it everyday, now shes gone I am feeling even worse than before. I hope that she has a good life full of love.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

Yes, this is as much a problem for me as my depression.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

When I drink I do. Although it's more like semi-conscious self-sabotage. The messes sober me has had to clear up...