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BeAtPeace

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Jul 31, 2022
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I apologize in advance for the self loathing. I need somewhere I can vent without judgement.

I hate how I look physically. Every night I lay in bed and pick apart everything I hate about myself. I stand in front of the mirror constantly..pointing out how disgusting I am and that no one will ever love me. I'm contemplating covering up my mirror so I don't have to look at myself anymore.

I keep thinking of the quote "you're not for everyone, but you're perfect for someone" and that just doesn't apply to me. I don't see how anyone could look at me and think "that's who I want to spend my life with".

I hate everything about myself. I'm disgusting. I'm worthless. Any amount of self esteem I've had is gone.

Does anyone else feel like this? 95% of my reasons to CTB stem from how I feel when I look in the mirror.
 
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