Self harm

[pleasehelp]

I used to self harm a lot as a teenager, I'm now 24. I've started self harming again nothing serious just pathetic cuts on my arms and legs but I'm a nurse in the NHS and can't hide them. I have turnt back to self harming as I don't know any other way of dealing with my emotions other than inflicting pain onto myself to give myself something to cry about. That is my literal mindset.
I'm just telling you all really. Nothing is going to stop me doing it and one day I will probably just stop again, I do have thoughts of not wanting to be here anymore but not enough to want to kms.

 

[Eyris]

your thoughts are justified and nothing you do is pathetic, we all have ways to deal with things and not all of them are keen for other people, its important that you do what helps you as a person, because if it allows you to deal with all the emotional stress that you have then it is not something that you should be ashamed of because the only people that will look down on it are people that don't understand who you are as a person. don't let strangers cause you to feel like less of a person

 

[Nobodi]

Hi I also self harm it just helps my mind relax from the brutal rumination and stress. My forearms are all sliced up not too bad tho just a bit. I was planning to maybe switch to a taser or using so form of shock in order to not have the marks there. I might have to start learning to use make up to conceal if I can't find the taser

 

[EmptyEater]

I used to self harm a lot as a teenager, I'm now 24. I've started self harming again nothing serious just pathetic cuts on my arms and legs but I'm a nurse in the NHS and can't hide them. I have turnt back to self harming as I don't know any other way of dealing with my emotions other than inflicting pain onto myself to give myself something to cry about. That is my literal mindset.
I'm just telling you all really. Nothing is going to stop me doing it and one day I will probably just stop again, I do have thoughts of not wanting to be here anymore but not enough to want to kms.

If the point is to just inflict pain, you could grip ice. It hurts like hell and you won't have scars after.

 

[attheend13]

I used to self harm a lot as a teenager, I'm now 24. I've started self harming again nothing serious just pathetic cuts on my arms and legs but I'm a nurse in the NHS and can't hide them. I have turnt back to self harming as I don't know any other way of dealing with my emotions other than inflicting pain onto myself to give myself something to cry about. That is my literal mindset.
I'm just telling you all really. Nothing is going to stop me doing it and one day I will probably just stop again, I do have thoughts of not wanting to be here anymore but not enough to want to kms.

I started self harming when I was a kid like 10. When things were violent in my home which they always were I went to walk no one ever noticed. I'd pick up broken bottles and cut. It relieved the pressure building up but it also took the unimaginable pain on the inside and put it outside where I could deal with it. Gauze steri strips and alcohol. It boiled the pain down to something I could handle for a minute. I get it. Sorry you're hurting so much.

If the point is to just inflict pain, you could grip ice. It hurts like hell and you won't have scars after.

I recently tried this it also can help with a panic attack but plunging into ice water is better. I can't SI anymore because I can't hide it