Cant Maintain
Garbage Fire
- Aug 21, 2020
- 147
TW: Cutting mentions as well as blood stuff.
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So today I relapsed on self harm, cutting. So afterwards I typically clean up with a small cotton swab and start dressing things, but today I did something a bit different. I soaked the entire swab, like the damn thing was bright red and I could paint with it if I wanted to. I took maybe a few grains to a pinch of SN on a tissue and rolled it onto the swab and the whole thing just turned dark brown, almost to a black so fast like something from some vampire flick. Was wild to watch. I guess I have decent stuff and don't have to worry about the paranoid voice in my head saying "someone replaced it with table salt to try and protect you." Deal. Still! How fascinating to actually see in action!
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So today I relapsed on self harm, cutting. So afterwards I typically clean up with a small cotton swab and start dressing things, but today I did something a bit different. I soaked the entire swab, like the damn thing was bright red and I could paint with it if I wanted to. I took maybe a few grains to a pinch of SN on a tissue and rolled it onto the swab and the whole thing just turned dark brown, almost to a black so fast like something from some vampire flick. Was wild to watch. I guess I have decent stuff and don't have to worry about the paranoid voice in my head saying "someone replaced it with table salt to try and protect you." Deal. Still! How fascinating to actually see in action!
