four_walls_girl
En-BEDded in reality
- Nov 18, 2024
- 40
List of things I find annoying as a self harmer. Realising these are pretty specific at some points so I don't know if they're all that relatable lmao.
in no particular ranking order:
♡ cutting in bed cause you're lazy and getting blood on your favourite bed sheets
♡ putting down your blade for one second and losing it/ subsequently saying "fuck it" and going to sleep hoping you don't wake up with a blade lodged in your butt
♡ not finding the right video on YouTube/ music to fit the mood and most of your session is spent looking only to eventually settle with some shitty YouTuber or song you don't even like all that much
♡ headphones die barley halfway into your session
♡ hyping yourself up for one swipe to be beans or deeper and then it ends up barley a catscratch. either cause the blade is that shitty or SI.
♡ again SI getting in the way when you're trying to multiswipe quickly so the cut already ends up filling with blood before you can.
♡ multiswiping but you have shit precision skills so it goes diagonal to the cut and you end up with a triangle of skin that's absolutely gonna get infected
♡ being terrible at medical stuff and just general visual detection so you don't know if a cut is getting infected or not even after searching the signs.
♡ wanting to cut but paranoid cause you haven't showered or shaved and what if someone walks in to find out and you're forced to go to the hospital in greasy hair and stinky days old pjs.
♡ being on your period or feeling too sick to cut so you can't be bothered to deal with all the clean up or aftercare.
♡ getting a blade thinking it's going to be sharp enough and it ends up the dullest shit that does absolutely nothing
Feel free to add your own :3
in no particular ranking order:
♡ cutting in bed cause you're lazy and getting blood on your favourite bed sheets
♡ putting down your blade for one second and losing it/ subsequently saying "fuck it" and going to sleep hoping you don't wake up with a blade lodged in your butt
♡ not finding the right video on YouTube/ music to fit the mood and most of your session is spent looking only to eventually settle with some shitty YouTuber or song you don't even like all that much
♡ headphones die barley halfway into your session
♡ hyping yourself up for one swipe to be beans or deeper and then it ends up barley a catscratch. either cause the blade is that shitty or SI.
♡ again SI getting in the way when you're trying to multiswipe quickly so the cut already ends up filling with blood before you can.
♡ multiswiping but you have shit precision skills so it goes diagonal to the cut and you end up with a triangle of skin that's absolutely gonna get infected
♡ being terrible at medical stuff and just general visual detection so you don't know if a cut is getting infected or not even after searching the signs.
♡ wanting to cut but paranoid cause you haven't showered or shaved and what if someone walks in to find out and you're forced to go to the hospital in greasy hair and stinky days old pjs.
♡ being on your period or feeling too sick to cut so you can't be bothered to deal with all the clean up or aftercare.
♡ getting a blade thinking it's going to be sharp enough and it ends up the dullest shit that does absolutely nothing
Feel free to add your own :3
first thing I ever used was a rusty blade. How I didn't get infected is still a mystery
