Self encouraging ctb by self hatred

[BrokenBeing]

Is it normal if I start recalling embarrassing and hurtful moments from my life, hating myself specifically on purpose to do last steps for ctb? Like I remind myself about harsh reality of my existence so I feel no regrets in making my decision. I even feel motivated to do it.

 

[C_F]

I do this too for the same reasons. How "normal" this is, unsure.

 

[ugly_loser2008]

i have no doubt that self hatred makes suicide easier. does for me anyways.

 

[dysfunctional]

I even do it by self sabotage. Actually making my life worse. Anyone else?

 

[Thinking]

I have a sad playlist that I listen too to help me hate myself. Sounds weird when I say it out loud i guess...