Seeing suicide portrayed makes me feel so uncomfortable

[sximii]

I am very suicidal, have made many attempts and was in hospital for it a lots too. So you would think I'm desensitised. Yet for some reason seeing suicide in more mundane contexts (movies, media, music, conversations, etc) makes me really uncomfortable. Like I can't watch a movie if suicide plays a big role there. I wouldn't say it triggers me, just makes me feel uncomfortable. Am I the only one or do other people have that too?

 

[sadAndLost]

I have that too, even when people joke about it

 

[rozeske]

Sad? yes. Knowing what it feels like It's not a position I'd want anyone to be in, but uncomfortable? no, not really.