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rian 69

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Hi, folks. My real first name is Brian. I am 69 and been looking at this type of stuff for basically 30 years or so. Guess it's too bad in a way that back 30 years ago you could get almost whatever you wanted from a reputable doctor. I had a particularly sensitive surgery about 10 years ago and no doubt the doc didn't do a great job. The pain for months was pretty intense and very real. He gave me 30 mg oxy I can't tell you how many times over those months. Never did get addicted to them and when it finally healed itself enough, I stopped.

But I digress. I came here to see what's what. I've read the PPH every edition. I'm not one to wonder around a foreign country looking for maybe something while really having no idea what I'm doing.

I don't k ow how to use the dark web or crypto - I'm smart enough to learn I suppose but don't have the "muster" at his point to try past the one time I did try and it just made my MH issues go crazy.

And I see from being here that what I'm going through pretty much everyone is. Guess there are a lucky few who find the sweet spot with partial the first time or can actually SWD but I can't even get lightheaded. I'll keep messing around with the partial cause it's no big deal experimenting, but at least I know lots have the same issue - ah, the sweet spot

And if my situation was different I could think CO would be worth a try. But my situation doesn't allow for that.

So my "see ya" isn't me ending it at a definite day or time. It's a "thanks for putting up with me" and I guess I'm a little sadder though not surprised that "sourcing links, etc" are not allowed here.

As I've said probably ad nauseum, if I had a F resource that would definitely be my go to. And I guess finding a way to source that on this platform was always just a pipe dream.

I wish everyone (including myself) the best that life and death has to offer. I'll end on this FWIW - if Bourdain can do it in a French hotel with his bathrobe belt and Robin can do it in his closet after realizing his wrists weren't for him, then sooner I'll go that way unless my playing around with partial strikes gold.
 
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