Nullm
Student
- Apr 5, 2019
- 133
What are the chances of being fooled again? Plenty
Only i don't see any getting out in the last minute again saying maybe i can keep on
After i already tried that
Last time (2 yeas ago) it wasn't actually attempt i ordered N 3 bottles without anti -emetics dont remember why i skipped that
After month wait i got it few days later went to a hotel opened the package and found out that half the content was spilled (i asked him for disguise bottles)
Then i was waiting for 9 pm dont rememeber why
But without using my head i droped it in the sink (even though i already had orange nuice and choclate on the table) out of fear in going through the interval between drinking and dying
I knew that in this interval i would feel like i'm gonna die and no escape from it
In short a bloody coward
Afterwards returning home seeing the first person on the street i screamed in my head over this horrible mistake
Had no choice got a rope then looked for a suitable place found none (i dont go a driving lisence )
Finally there was some strange place in a nature park with rods on the ceiling
I went there for few weeks every few nights didn't dare to kick the chair once i did but my toe scartched the floor in the meantime all those feelings of life is precious worn me till i finally sacrificed my diginty
And gone back to life without it
Now my convictions even though unhealthy ones only got reinforced and reinforced etc..
Only i don't see any getting out in the last minute again saying maybe i can keep on
After i already tried that
Last time (2 yeas ago) it wasn't actually attempt i ordered N 3 bottles without anti -emetics dont remember why i skipped that
After month wait i got it few days later went to a hotel opened the package and found out that half the content was spilled (i asked him for disguise bottles)
Then i was waiting for 9 pm dont rememeber why
But without using my head i droped it in the sink (even though i already had orange nuice and choclate on the table) out of fear in going through the interval between drinking and dying
I knew that in this interval i would feel like i'm gonna die and no escape from it
In short a bloody coward
Afterwards returning home seeing the first person on the street i screamed in my head over this horrible mistake
Had no choice got a rope then looked for a suitable place found none (i dont go a driving lisence )
Finally there was some strange place in a nature park with rods on the ceiling
I went there for few weeks every few nights didn't dare to kick the chair once i did but my toe scartched the floor in the meantime all those feelings of life is precious worn me till i finally sacrificed my diginty
And gone back to life without it
Now my convictions even though unhealthy ones only got reinforced and reinforced etc..