menherachan
馬鹿野郎
- Jun 22, 2020
- 57
i just cant take this anymore, my schizohphrenia just gets worse and worse in my life. ive been in mental hospitals in years to some point, and nothing ever works. my walls just cry and the tears fall from the ceiling and onto my bed. my bed just becomes bloody from how much i just cut. i do it everyday and i just, am done..ive tried to kill myself so many times but i always get caught by my mum. she locked up all the knifes glass cups (i bought my razorblades off amazon) and our shed is locked. i cant get ahold of anything anymore all i have is my bedsheets. i just want to do it but no place to do it. i constantly get yelled at to do it frommydad and just yells at me for hours about how little he cares. he ruined my life, i used to get beat every single day to the point i would paint my walls in blood to get him to stop, when i found animals in the yard he would stabthem.. i was raped alot i just dont knowwhatto do i just want to die,, im new here so hi. im anon and i just am a huge menhera goth. i love menhera and goth fashion and draw alot of sketches. i also animate and model. i got lots of job offers for it but never took any because i am terrified of people..