Discussion Say you have certified N in your hands now, how long would it be before you take it?

[sayire]

Say you have certified N in your hands now, how long would it be before you take it?

For me it will be few months, as I need to finish up few things. Family is one big reason for the hold up.

How about you?

 

[The anhedonic one]

Definitely within the space of one week. I'm completely done now and nothing or no-one is holding me back.
I'm waiting till I'm well enough to get myself through a trip to Mexico. I've always promised myself that I shall die by Nembutal.
But failing that I will probably just jump off beachy head because it's a pretty guaranteed death and there is no backing out once you leap.

 

[FuneralCry]

If I had a method as peaceful as Nembutal I would be so relieved, there would be no need to prolong this dreadful existence and suffer more in the process of waiting around to die anyway. I would take the N as soon as possible as only non-existence is what is appealing and desirable, existence was just a tragic mistake in the first place, to me being able to peacefully escape from all suffering on my own terms would be the best outcome.

 

[Valky]

I am already looking forward to using my method one day :) it feels great knowing I always have a way out but I do not intend to go anytime soon.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If I had N in my hands right now this would be my good night drink when I go to bed today.

 

[aitouka]

Two days. Takes two days to properly dispose of what I don't want others to see, and write goodbye letters to everyone I love.

 

[NoHorizon]

I'd be torn between tonight and never. Never because I don't want to hurt my family, and tonight because as of this week I feel ready enough to just be at peace.

 

[Aisley]

If I had it in hand? I'd break a couple laws and send it along. I won't name her or anything, but jesus, is she ever in need of it. And I got a solid enough way out.

not highroading, either. Just stating. I really hate how half of what I write looks like it!

 

[Ernest1964]

I HAVE three bottles of it right now and I am comforted that I can choose to go if and when I want to. It makes me feel that I have power over life and death for myself.

 

[crimsonpool]

a couple months so i could wait until i go to a concert i want to go to,but if that fell through/i knew for sure there was no way i was going i'd take it the same day i have no other reason to stick around