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Electra

Electra

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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Coming back to die
Feb 24, 2023
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
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HopingOnaMiracle

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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
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Alcoholic Teletubby

Alcoholic Teletubby

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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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CatLvr

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deletednumber

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Thisisnotaname

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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

An existence transfigured by failure.
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

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I feel this a lot. And it's what I came here to say also. Sorry you are SO tired that "exhausted" is a better descriptor for you than "tired".
I hear you 🙂 and even now I was thinking I'm too exhausted to think of a better word. According to google I think depleted is also a good description. Sorry for you too. Can you sleep, or do you get to have some restful hours at least?
 
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CatLvr

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I hear you 🙂 and even now I was thinking I'm too exhausted to think of a better word. According to google I think depleted is also a good description. Sorry for you too. Can you sleep, or do you get to have some restful hours at least?
Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.
 
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Electra

Electra

The relief of giving in to destruction
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FadingSnowFake

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Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.
Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?
 
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

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Nov 18, 2024
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?
Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).
 
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qwertyuiopasdfghjkl

I don't think; therefore I am not.
Oct 13, 2024
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Failure
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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MISERY !!!!! 😭😭😭
 
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SA1994EC

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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

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Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).
Wow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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Wow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?
Nah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-In 🤗 I am addicted to Sonic Ice -- couldn't want for anything more. (Except maybe a little bit bigger yard so I could have a couple of fainting pygmy goats! 🤗)

I have no idea how I can even ponder how to ctb when I am as fortunate as I am. I know people who would DIE to have the life I have, and yet I have this confounding urge to leave it all behind. I do not understand my brain at all.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,615
Nah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-In 🤗 I am addicted to Sonic Ice -- couldn't want for anything more. (Except maybe a little bit bigger yard so I could have a couple of fainting pygmy goats! 🤗)

I have no idea how I can even ponder how to ctb when I am as fortunate as I am. I know people who would DIE to have the life I have, and yet I have this confounding urge to leave it all behind. I do not understand my brain at all.
Who understands any of this anyways ... all the best 🙂
 
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Electra

Electra

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Thisisnotaname

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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
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Whipped. (I'm hurting today, but the kids are here watching SpongeBob so I'll fake it for a half hour or so until they go home.)
 
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SA1994EC

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GlassMoon

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Nov 18, 2024
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